Talks

                                    

                                          
I blink and lick my lips, shuffling myself into a comfortable position "Why are you staring at me like that?" I ask gazing up at Katie, who's leaning on her side towering above me. "Fuck." Katie breathes, I blink twice. Her gaze stays on me, her hand grabs my jaw. None of us speak, our eyes don't leave one and other's. Katie's lips find mine in a hungry kiss, my hands rub on her arms as we kiss. Katie's hand moves and rests itself on my neck, she gives it a gentle squeeze. Damn, that's hot. I gently bite on Katie's lower lip, causing a moan to leave her lips. "Hmm." I grin into the kiss. Katie pulls away, still silent. I study her face trying to read her thoughts. "We should sleep." Katie sighs and rubs her face, I'm almost certain she regrets it. "Yeah. You're right. Goodnight, I guess." Katie nods her head and lays down, I find the rolled up blanket on the floor and go to put it back between us. "Why?" Katie frowns. "Huh?" I say. "We can kiss but can't lay by each other?" I shrug. "Oh, you know what, whatever." Katie sulks. "I couldn't give a fuck about me, I'm single. You're not... I shouldn't have let you kiss me." I frown. 
"You've literally seen the texts from Caitlin..." Katie says defensively. "So what? She cheats and you think the best thing to do is go and do the same thing? Man that's fucked up... yous both clearly are in Kyra's club." I scoff. "Don't even...is that what you think?"  Katie cracks her knuckles. "It doesn't matter what I think." I shrug. "It's your life. If you're both happy seeing other people when you're in a relationship then you do you." I drop the rolled up blanket on the floor, forgetting to put it back on the bed. "I'm going to sleep." Katie huffs, lying down on her side of the bed, her back to me. "I'm not about that life... there's nothing I hate more than a cheat." I state and get into bed on my side. "Don't act like you're an angel, you're far from it, Burns." Katie snaps. "You can leave in the morning. I don't want and I don't need you." I sigh and turn my back on her. 
Katie turns her lamp off, I hear her breath shaky. Damn, I shouldn't have said that. Katie's clearly feeling vulnerable right now and all I've done is kick her while she's down. Kyra cheated on me, I ran... where was Katie? Right here. When I cried, who dried my eyes, who held me? Katie... I shouldn't have said any of that. I roll over, going closer to Katie. "I'm sorry." I rub my hand on her arm, comforting her. "I shouldn't have said that." I sigh. Katie doesn't move, I've really upset her. "Leave me alone." Katie whispers. "I feel bad." I sigh, I don't get a reply. I stop rubbing Katie's arm and pull my hand away taking the hint. I roll onto my back staring into the darkness of the room, Katie's lamp goes off. I guess she's gonna sleep now. 
I lay still for ages, the room is quiet yet my head is not. How does Lili not see my want for her? I don't want to fight, I do enough of that with Caitlin. I just want to be held, I don't think Lili realised how calm she made me feel when she rubbed my arm. Yes so I kissed Lili, I needed her... I want her in my arms. I sigh. "Are you asleep?" I ask softly. "No..." Lili replied, I feel movement in the bed. "Come here." I say, scooting closer, Lili comes closer. I instantly pull her into me. "Cuddle me." I breathe. Lili puts her arm around me, but it's not a cuddle. "A proper cuddle, Burns." I sigh. I lay on my back and pull her even closer. "Lay your head on me, Dumbass." I let out a light laugh, Lili's head goes on my shoulder. I roll my eyes and position her where I want her. "That's better." Lili's head now on my chest, I wrap my arms around her. "Hmm." Lili hums tiredly. "Get some sleep. I've got you." Lili lays with her head on my chest, at first she stays like that for a couple of minutes, then I feel her leg go over mine. "Comfy now?" I ask. "Yeah, much more." I keep one arm around her and my other hand grips her leg keeping her there. "I hate fighting you." I admit, gently rubbing her back. "Me too. Can we not fight?" Lili whispers. "No fighting." I reply. We both eventually drift off in each other's arms. My heart beats fast, this is everything I want and need right now.
By the time morning came I woke up before Lili. She was even more wrapped up in my arms and legs now. In fact she was almost completely on top of me. I hold her close, gently rolling over so she was on the bed and then I got up to use the bathroom. By the time I had gotten back, Lili was awake and already changed into her outfit for the day. "Morning." I look her up and down, she looked good. "Oh hey. Morning" Lili smiles. "You were asleep... how did you...?" I say in shock at how fast she's up and dressed. "I felt you leave me. The bed was cold." Lili shrugged. "I was coming back..." I sigh.