"Are you still nervous?" He gave her hand a small squeeze and saw her slowly nod shyly. "Is it cause I'm not trustworthy?" His tone was light and joking but he was half afraid that it might be the reason why she seemed to still be so stiff.
"That's not it at all, Oppa." She bit her lower lip before sighing. "I'm...not confident." That was something he didn't expect to hear from her. He had read up on enough articles, heard enough from his peers, and seen it for himself--her talent, her raw passion, her desire to be do better. When she was on set, the air around her changed, she was a whole different person as Hong Hae In and yet it didn't feel unnatural or forced. She brought life into a character that seemed so stiff and cold. She added layers to her character, understood them at a profound level that he had never seen before from any of his other co-stars.
"Did someone say something?" He asked carefully, wondering if there was an article doubting her skills. He might have to get his team to look into that if that was the case.
She shook her head. "It's just...me...I'm not confident in doing things off script. Like I know how Hong Hae In three years in the future would act but this is a period of time where we don't have much to go off on. This is the Hong Hae In that is loved and is loving someone with all her heart and soul. She's...warm and happy. And...it feels less like Hong Hae In right now and more like Kim Ji Won."
"And what's wrong with that? I quite like Kim Ji Won...actually I like her more than Hong Hae In." He tried to reassure her, still not understanding how someone whose usually so focused and ready to work could be so shy and timid.
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"I guess I'm afraid that...Kim Ji Won may not be as charming as Hong Hae In. I like having a script...I like memorizing things...I like it when the character seems like their own and not just me...It's safer when I can separate the character from myself. I like it when people refer to me as my characters....because then I can separate their thoughts...whether that be compliments or criticisms away from me." She bit her lower lip before letting go of his hand and turning around in the tunnel, looking at the design before leaning back against one of the walls. Kicking the ground she gave him a soft smile and shook her head. "See...like right now, we are supposed to be on our honeymoon and all I can think about is if I'm showing that I'm in love properly when-"
"When?"
She looked up at him bashfully before shaking her head. "It's going to sound strange."
"Try me."
"I don't think...I've ever been in love like this. Not like how Hong Hae In has been in love. You know the kind of love that makes you think impossible things. The kind of love that changes you. The kind of love...that scares people but it's worth it...you know..the kind that you read in books and fairytales. The kind of love that Baek Hyun Woo and Hong Hae In has..."She crossed her arms and sighed. "How am I supposed to show that sort of love without any knowledge of how it's supposed to feel?"
