Chapter 12- Cinema

                                    

                                          
⚠️TW: Mentions of eating disorders
"You ready to leave?" Aurora asks, grabbing her keys and handbag. 
"Yep, I think so." I answer. 
We both leave our dorm and walk out of the building, heading in the direction of the town centre. I promised Aurora that we would both go and watch the new Deadpool movie today since she's been wanting to watch it, and I'm quite excited. 
One thing that's just been on my mind a little recently is how much I want to open up to Lizzie and Scarlett about some things, but I'm really nervous to. I'm sort of afraid that they'll see me a differently or think I'm abnormal or something. As much as I trust them, it's really difficult to talk about some stuff. 
"Alright." Aurora smiles as we walk into a small shop so that we can buy our food now since it'll be cheaper than at the cinema, "Do you wanna share a bag of popcorn?"
My eyes scan over the different choices on the shelves as I fidget with my fingers anxiously. She seems to notice my hesitation, taking my hand slowly. 
"Hey, you don't have to if you don't want to. No pressure." She smiles softly. 
I smile back, "I think I'll just get a drink."
"That's okay! I'm gonna get some popcorn for myself, let's have a look at the drinks."
I buy myself a diet Coke whilst Aurora gets herself a bottle of Fanta, the both of us paying for our things before walking towards the cinema. I love spending time with her, she always makes me feel so safe because she knows if I'm struggling without me even needing to say anything. She truly does care about me. 
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I get up from bed to answer the door, paying our delivery driver before walking back into our dorm room. After the movie earlier, we couldn't be bothered to cook anything so we did the first thing that came to mind: ordered food. 
I take my happy meal out of the bag and place it on my nightstand before passing the bag to Aurora so that she can take out her food. As I sit down to eat, something crosses my mind. 
"God, this is incredible." She says as she begins to eat her food, "You alright?"
"Can I talk to you about something?" I ask. 
"Yeah of course!" She says, sitting up to face me and putting her food down, "What's up?"
"Well, I really want to open up to Lizzie and Scarlett about my eating because I feel like they must've noticed something by now." I start slowly, "But I don't know where to begin and I don't even know what they'll think of it."
"I'm going to be completely honest with you, okay?" Aurora tells me, and I nod, "I don't know that I've actually ever had a conversation with either of them, but I can tell that they love you so much and they care about you more than anything."
"How could you possibly know that?" I ask. 
"Because I've never seen you this happy. When you come back from staying at theirs or when you're about to leave to go see them, I can tell how excited and happy you are. And their faces practically light up every time they see you at school."
I don't respond, I just stay quiet for a moment. I didn't realise how strong their love is for me. 
"That's how I know that if you tell them, you're going to be completely fine and they will be incredibly supportive." She continues, "They care about you, Izzy, they're not going to think anything bad about it."
"But how do I even start the conversation?" I ask, "That's the bit I'll probably struggle with."
"Just tell them that you want to talk to them about something and just explain everything to them. They'll be more understanding than anyone, trust me."
"Okay." I smile, "I'll talk to them."
"And you'll be completely fine." Aurora smiles, "Now, can we watch a movie or something whilst I absolutely devour this McDonald's?"