♡︎𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝙵𝚘𝚞𝚛♡︎

                                    

                                          
"Shower?" He asked and I nodded in response. He picked me up bridal style and brought me into his bathroom. He placed me on the counter and went back out into his room. He came back in with 2 outfits.
One for me and one for him. I grabbed my phone and went onto Spotify. "I have a speaker if you want to connect to it." He said and I nodded. He grabbed my phone and connected it.  He handed it back to me and I pressed play on my playlist. He grabbed two towels and two washcloths. He handed me one and I took it. He picked me back up and placed me in the shower gently. He got in behind me and he got his hair all wet. I looked over at him and he grabbed his body wash. He put some on his washcloth and he washed himself. He washed all of the soap off of him and then grabbed his shampoo and conditioner, they're both in the same bottle. He quickly washed his hair and washed it all out.
He stepped out of the way and gently put me under the water. He gently grabbed the washcloth and put the soap on it. He quickly washed my body and washed all the soap off of me. He gently grabbed the shampoo and conditioner. He put some on his hands and rubbed it into his hands. He started gently rubbing it into my scalp and I threw my head back. I absolutely love the way it feels when someone rubs my scalp. It's like a whole different level of stress relief. I let out a quiet whimper and he stopped. "I'm so sorry, I really like how it feels when someone runs their hands through my hair and rubs my scalp." I said and he nodded in response. He continued for a second.
He started washing it out of my hair and I looked up at him. He finally finished washing it out of my hair and he shut the water off as I squeezed the excess water out of my hair. He handed me a towel and I wrapped it around myself. He quickly dried himself off and got dressed. "Do you want me to dry you off and get you dressed?" He laughed. "My hair is wet!!" I groaned. "That's what happens when you wash it." He said. I whined at him and he quickly dried me off. He dried my hair out as best as he could and got me dressed. "I put your clothes in the washing machine for tomorrow. If you plan on going back home, or I can bring you home and you can grab your stuff and stay here for a little while." He said and I nodded.
We walked back into his room and he put my phone on the charger for me. I laid down on the side by the wall and he laid down next to me. "Don't be alarmed if I wrap my arms around you and I don't let go of you, I might actually tighten my grip on you, I do that a lot. So, I'm sorry if I do." He said. I grabbed his hands and wrapped them around me. "If you haven't realized, I don't care." I smiled. The flashbacks keep hitting me, and they aren't good flashbacks, they're flashbacks I've been trying to forget about. I don't even know if he remembers me, or if he's just like me, trying to forget about the past and everything that happened between us. But I can say that it's hard.
It's hard to forget the fact that he beat Levi unconscious in front of me, despite the fact I was sobbing and begging him to stop. Granted, he had every single right to do it, he was raised right, and I can't deny that, but Jesus, in front of me? He apologized every single day and I hated him for it, and one day he left, and I didn't know where he went, but he's back now. And I can't hold it against him anymore. It's the past, but that's not what I'm worried about, I'm worried about it happening all over again, except this time, none of us get lucky, and we are all fucked. I don't want to deal with this again, but I guess the only thing I can really do, is just hope it doesn't happen again.
These flashbacks, haunt me. I can't forget about them, I can't just sit here and think of anything without it showing up, I don't know if it's my own intuition telling me that I need to be careful and watch them. Or if it's my intuition telling me to prepare for it to happen again. But I do know, that it's war, if it does happen again. I don't have a side to fight on. I just want this nightmare to be over with. I'm so physically, mentally, and emotionally tired of this. I'm exhausted from him. I'm going to have to get out of our relationship, and really fast, because it's getting worse and worse every day I see him. I finally fell asleep and so did Angel.
To be continued...
A/N:
I'm planning on making a huge war between them next chapter and I'm hoping to make it normal.