Chapter 5

                                    

                                          
Ava POV
What is Past?
A phase that passed away ?
A time one cannot bring back?
Or 
A time which always hunts down our present?
I had gone for multiple therapies, gone to best psychologists of NY but nothing helped me. All of them said I had to break through the walls of my past.
But how could I break through an invisible wall?
I myself couldn't see the walls that have caged my thoughts or that have chocked me. I didn't want to think about my past but when Shawn had touched me my thoughts had started to trigger and I wasn't able to sleep. 
But today I knew I should have not seen his face but as always my misfortune never let's me be in peace so I saw him during our Legal lessons and only a sight was enough to trigger my panic attack.
I somehow controlled my body during the lesson and as soon as the bell rung I rushed out. While going to garage I banged into someone's chest. I looked up and to my fear it was Shawn. He tried to say something but before he could speak I pushed him aside. He wasn't ready for this sudden attack so he stumbled back a few steps. I got into my car and drove to my home like a mad bull.
Tears were streaming down my face, my body was trembling and my breath started becoming shorter and shorter. I covered a distance of 30 minutes in just fifteen minutes and reached home. I tried to balance my body and walked to gate. Entering the villa I held on to coffee table to maintain my balance. The flashes of that night started to come infront of my eyes and I screamed. I threw everything around the house. The lamps , flower vases, the coffee table. I fell on my knees and started crying. All those flashes started conquering my mind and started murmuring 
"Mumma please come back pleaseeee mumma pleaseee no no don't take my mumma. I will be a good girl. Please."
I saw them taking away my mother from me. I don't know how to save her. I am begging them not to take her but they never listened to me. I couldn't make out within my flashes and reality. I felt as if I am stuck somewhere and there is no place for me to come out of it.
But.....then......
Suddenly I felt someone shaking me hard. Someone pulling me out of that horrific room. I don't know whose this.
The last thing I remember before closing my eyes were,
" Shhh calm down Cherry. I am here. Shh nothing will happen baby "
And then darkness consumed me into it's embrace.
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Shawn POV
Flashback 
I was going to the garage when I saw Ava rushing towards her car. Her eyes were strained with tears and her body was trembling.
What happened to my love?
I ran towards her to talk to her but she was so lost in something that she didn't even notice me and banged onto my chest. She looked up at me and I felt a pang looking her beautiful face all dull and scared. Her lips were trembling and eyes filled with tears. Before I could speak something or hold her she pushed me with all of her strength and I stumbled back. She then got inside her car and drove away.
I couldn't imagine in what would happen to her in the condition she was driving. I hoped on to my bike and followed her. 
When reached her house I saw ever struggling to walk but somehow she managed to walk. I ran and entered her villa and the scene infront of me was enough to shatter my heart into pieces. 
She was throwing all the stuff here and there. I didn't interrupt her in that as I knew her anger was needed to come out. But then she fell on her knees and cried and screamed. I ran to her and held her I my arms. She was wiggling and struggling in my arms and kept murmuring something which I couldn't make out anything except for mumma. I held her closer and caressed her hair. I kissed her temple and started mumbling sweet words into her ears.
After sometime I looked down at her and saw she had passes out. I picked her up and went to her room. I put her on the bed and covered her with the comforter. I told her maids to clean up the living area and laid beside her. I looked at her smudged kohl, disheveled hair, tear stained cheeks and trembling lips. I pulled her closer to my chest and then I too went off to sleep with my Cherry in my arms.
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Panic attacks are bad!!!
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Byee