what did i see?

                                    

                                          
i'm sitting in class, tapping my pen onto the table while waiting for the professor to enter the room. i lean my cheek onto my fist, bored. i then see bill walk into class, but i get suspicious. he isn't with his other 3 connectives - aka, tom, georg and gustav. 
i take my mind off of it though and roll my eyes, looking back at my empty blank piece of paper. i hear footsteps, coming into the classroom.

'good morning, class.' the professor, mr. deakins announced as he walked in with a smile on his face. which, i can always tell - it's gonna be a boring, boring class. i sigh, then hear bill sit down. i don't know why i can detect every little thing he does, but it's certainly annoying me.

mr. deakins drops his 'happy sunshine' crap and speaks in a monotone voice, 'today, we'll be researching a topic that interests us. so, go rogue.' i look up slowly, and smile. that's perfect. i get to do my research about vampires without risking getting myself in trouble. i smile to myself, and open my laptop.

i think everything is normal until, a certain someone decides to sit next to me. i look to the side, it's bill. honestly, i'm terrified of him. 
ever since the chase and the whole conversation at the apartment thing, he intimidates me, even though he pulled tom away from possibly getting aggressive with me. i get a bad vibe from him.
but another side of me wants to ask him something so bad, yet i'm too scared to talk to him. i don't wanna make eye contact with him, so i just keep looking at my laptop - my face now straightened out. 
i type in my password, and get out my pen. until, it seems he has had enough of the silence.

'what'd you see.' he says, like he wasn't asking but he was demanding for me to tell him. his tone is harsh. i gulp, not wanting to answer - but i have to anyway, since i know he isn't gonna accept an excuse.
'i was being serious, i didn't see anything.' my tone is also harsh, me and his eyes now making sharp eye contact.
he hisses, 'well, you better be serious because tom isn't going to leave you alone until you tell the truth.'
i furrow my eyebrows, 'what does he mean 'the truth'?' i make quotation marks with my fingers as i said that, 'i've spat out everything. what does he want from me?'
bill shrugs, now he's not answering as if he's unsure. i want to ignore bill and not ask anymore questions, i want to ignore all of them... but my curiosity is too strong.

'tell me, bill.' my gaze gets more serious as i see him looking away. my eye starts to twitch, as he doesn't answer.
i decide to cut the crap and go for it, i hold his chin - turning it towards me while i look at him like a hawk, 'come on. tell me, you started this conversation - so don't pussy out now.' i squint at him. i'll admit - i was scared of doing that. what if he was just like his twin and decided to just charge? but, i noticed something. 

he wasn't. what i mean by that is that he's not really aggressive, or ever as angry as tom. like if bill being enraged was just tom being normal. but, he doesn't look angry - or showing any signs of discomfort. instead he looks shocked, even a bit... flustered?  

i take my hand off of his chin slowly - i notice, he's even blushing a bit. he turns his head and looks away, like he's nervous. 
i can hear his audible gulp, 'i don't know, actually.' i notice his tone is more quiet, 'it's like... he's always saying something's up with you. like you're...' he stops himself.
'like i'm what?' i push bill to answer, but now i know i can't do anything. he's clearly not going to give it up. but at the same time, that's not all i care about right now. bill was just blushing, even if it was just a slight bit of pink or red on his cheeks. i don't know why, but... it makes my stomach stir. 

no, no. it can't be. i hate all of them...

my gaze softens as i look back at my computer, me and him don't talk to each other or even make eye contact with each other for the rest of the lesson. i do notice him sneak a few glances here and there, but i'm just going to brush it off for now, i'm probably just being delusional. the bell then rings, and i close my laptop and pack it away into my bag.

 i get up, pushing my book into my bag. i've actually done a fair bit of research on vampires - they're actually an interesting topic. i feel bill's stare linger on me as i walk out the door, as if he was examining me from head to toe - and it set me off. 

i hiss inside of my mind, please stop staring at me.

i'm sitting against a wall at recess. eva's sick, and i'm not even going to try to hang out with my standard 'friends' again as they all are really toxic and overall just sickening to be around. instead, i use this time to research just a bit more and try to connect all the dot points together about how i think the group are vampires. 

i'm glad i haven't told anyone about this secret little project i'm doing, as i'd be getting made fun of for believing in such a 'taboo' even though most people are scared about vampires anyway. i rub my sleep-deprived eyes, slouching into the wall. 
mostly at lunch, people are outside hanging out - so i'm basically by myself including the fact i'm at a secluded place. it makes me happy, knowing there's finally peace and quiet. 

i find myself a bit more woozy, like i'm getting sleepy. i feel myself lean against a wall beside me, my eyes getting restless. i don't know why i feel so tired, i haven't even done anything to make myself this tired. i then start to doze off right in the middle of basically nowhere at our school..