Nerves.

                                    

                                          
"Let me do that for you" I rushed to Isy's side as she stood in front of the kitchen counter making herself some lunch. 
"I'm pregnant, not incapable." She huffed, brushing me off. 
"I know you're not, but I also know how tired you are and I want you to get some rest before tomorrow"
"I can make myself some lunch Ale"
"-but you don't have to. Let me help you..." I pleaded, reaching to take over what she was doing. 
"Oh Ale- for gods sake! Please, just leave me be. If I need your help I will ask for it"
"Ok" I stepped back, holding my hands up slightly. 
"I'm going to go upstairs and tidy Jordi's room. He's left it in an absolute state. Give me a shout if you need anything" I explained, resting my hand on her upper arm for a moment before disappearing up the stairs. 
Isy was a week overdue... Enzo clearly had no plans of making his arrival anytime soon so after a checkup with our doctor it was decided that she would need to be induced, which was going to be happening tomorrow morning. 
We organised for Jordi to go and stay with Mama while we were at the hospital, explaining to him that it was just for a couple of nights and we would be coming straight back to pick him up. He had come around to the idea of becoming a big brother in the last couple of months, the initial fear of being replaced by the new baby had transformed into excitement as got further into the pregnancy. 
"We'll see you in a couple of days, ok?" I said as I gave Jordi a hug after taking him to Mamas earlier in the day. 
"Ok Mama" he nodded into my shoulder as he wrapped his little arms around my back. 
"Are you ok little man?" Isy asked from where she was stood beside us both, rubbing circles on Jordi's back with her palm. 
"I'm going to miss you and Mama" he looked up at her. 
"We're going to miss you too"
"Baby Enzo is coming isn't he?"
"He is" I nodded cautiously, knowing that his fear might resurface with the pending imminent arrival of his little brother. 
"I can't wait to meet him" he smiled at us before looking at the bump. 
"He can't wait to meet you too Jordi"
I was busy tidying away Jordi's dinosaurs when I saw Isy appear in the doorway, wearing a pair of my training shorts and a white vest, which seemed to be the only thing that fit her now that she was 41 weeks pregnant, her large bump sticking out far in front of her. 
"I'm sorry" she spoke softly as she leant against the doorframe. 
"I'm hormonal and tired and I was so mean to you"
"It's ok, I didn't take it to heart. There's a lot going on at the moment"
"I'm scared" she said, her eyes staring directly into mine as she spoke. 
"I am too"
"I've been researching inductions just to get a better idea of what's going to happen and there are so many terrible stories... 72 hour labours... it not working at all and having to have a c-section... the baby getting into distress. I'm just terrified that something is going to go wrong" she explained calmly before bursting into tears and covering her eyes with her hands. 
"Cariño" I mumbled, jumping to my feet and rushing over to my wife, immediately wrapping my arms around her as tightly as I could. 
"I know it's hard, but try not to focus on all the bad things that may possibly happen... focus on meeting our littlest boy" I explained softly as I held her close. 
"We've wanted this for so long, we've been through so much already and this is just the last step in getting the baby that we have spent nearly two years hoping and praying for. We're almost there and I'll be right by your side throughout the whole thing. If you need a hug then I'll be right there, you can squeeze my hand through the contractions and shout at me for being irritating and I won't mind, because you have grown both of our babies. You've made our little family and I will always love you for that"
"I feel so guilty for leaving Jordi too..."
"He'll have a great time with Mama, she said that she's going to keep him busy so he doesn't get worried and he'll be home in a few days. We'll have both of our boys under one roof"
"Are you not absolutely terrified about doubling the amount of children we have?" She asked as she pulled away from me slightly, her tearful eyes looking into mine. 
"A bit" I answered honestly. 
"But I'm also so excited... I can't stop thinking about Jordi holding him for the first time and the two of them growing up together... they'll be playing football together in the garden before we know it"
"I'm just looking forward to this little one kicking something other than my bladder" she joked before resting her head back on my chest. 
"What do you want to do this evening? I think it's going to be our last child free one for quite a while so we should make the most of it"
"I just want to cuddle up in bed with my wonderful wife and sleep... while we still have the chance"