It was quite late and Annalise was already asleep, though my mind kept running. I felt horrible for the way things had turned especially during the holidays. I stare at Rafe's contact and contemplate whether to call him or not.
"Fuck it," I mumbled before pressing call. Rafe hung up immediately. I sighed as I stood up and made my way to the kitchen.
I saw Rafe sitting there in the darkness as he had different alcohol bottles on the table. "Rafe.." I sit beside him and grab his hand in mine. "I'm sorry."
"I know." Rafe chuckled.
"No, seriously I am, I had no reason to hide such a big and serious thing from you. I'm genuinely sorry." I spoke truthfully, not knowing how else to redeem myself from my stupid choices.
"I just." Rafe shrugged, slurring his words as he was quite drunk already. "I missed Annalise's first year of being alive. I missed her birth, I missed on your pregnancy, Venice, I missed out on so many things." He spoke. "How can I just..not be mad at you."
"I know. You have every right to, it's so sudden for you. As I had nine months to mentally prepare myself, you had and have no time to think. You were immediately put into fatherhood, and it's my fault for not telling anyone. I genuinely don't know why I even didn't tell you." I say.
"Venice, I think we should stay as friends." He spoke as he stood up. "Like you said, we need to build our trust."
I frown. "Yeah, we do." I agree. "You can be with Annalise anytime you'd like, Rafe, I won't hesitate to give you her for the weekends, or summers."
"For sure, for sure," Rafe spoke, downing a shot of Hennessy. I stood up and grabbed his shot glass and the alcohol. "Enough Rafe, that's enough," I spoke in a serious tone.
"But-" he protested.
"No." I shake my head. I put it all in my dishwasher and walk back to Rafe who just sat and stared right at me. "I love you so much, Venice." He pouted; tears falling down his face. "Why must you hurt me in so many different ways."
I get down on my knees in front of him and stare at him. "I'm sorry," I whispered. "I am."
"Hiding my kid from me, hiding yourself from me as well. How could you? For all these wasted years?"
He was right, I hid so much from him and now I expect a "sorry" to be good enough for him. It's not good enough, and won't bring back the years that we've lost together.
Rafe stood up, he was so drunk. He leaned against his chair. "I'm going back to Outer-Banks tomorrow. I'm sorry."
"Oh.." I mumble. "Okay," I say.
"There's so much holding me back here, yet, I can't stay here." He shook his head, shrugging at me. "I'm sorry."
"No don't apologize-" I try going in for a hug but he just walked past me.
This is what I get.
I stood there and cried to myself, for something that I caused.
I lay in my bed and closed my eyes, hoping for the better.
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Walking downstairs, I saw Rafe making breakfast for Annalise as it was just the two of them awake. "Daddy I do want to!" Annalise shouted, sitting on the counter and watching her father make food.
"Annie, you've got to be careful!" Rafe chuckled.
I lightly smiled at the two interacting. I looked over at Rafe and he looked at me before quickly turning back to making breakfast.
"What are you trying to make?" I ask as I notice him repeating the same movement.
"Oh, nothing," Rafe spoke coldly, he flipped the pancake.
I frown, "has she eaten her breakfast?" I ask, standing beside Rafe.
"Yes. She just wanted seconds."
"Okay. Annalise, come you need to bathe." I say as I pick her up and walk to her room. I picked out pink sweatpants for her with a white turtle neck top and a light pink Nike crew neck. "Cute." I smile.
After bathing her I fixed up her wavy her and put it into two mini pigtails. I send her off to hang out with Rafe again. As I closed the door, Rafe stood there with his arms crossed. "Hey?" I spoke softly with him.
"I'm not gonna leave. I decided to stay for Annalise, then I was thinking.. that maybe she'd come to Outer-Banks with me." He spoke quietly.
He wore grey sweats with a black compressed shirt, his hair was fluffy and messy.
"Uhm.. okay. I'll go to." I say.
"Where?" He asked.
"To outer banks. I'm not too entirely sure how Annalise would react without me." I shrug. "But I'm willing to go," I say.
"Okay." Rafe nodded his head. "I'm sure she'll be fine."
I nod my head, thinking of what to say. "Okay, then.. how long are you planning on having her there?" I ask.
"A month."
"Whole month Rafe she's two, I don't know how she'll be without me for a whole month," I say with an unsure tone.
"Whatever. Just come." He rolled his eyes and walked away.
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Finishing up with wrapping the gifts for the family. I listened to music as I sat alone in my room, wrapping up Rafe's last gift.
It was a watch that he'd wanted for a while.
Christmas was in two days.
Oh Lord help me.
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All Lies - Book 2
RomanceWhen Venice leaves Rafe, she discovers she is pregnant but doesn't tell him. She raises the child alone until Rafe and her meet again. Rafe is heartbroken, not realizing the child is his. She reconnects with Sarah, Rafe's younger sister, Sarah being...