chapter 36

                                    

                                          
Scarlets POV-
It's my last day here in the rehab center. I'm happy but i'd also be lying if I said I wasn't scared. I just don't want to mess up again especially since Gracie has been coming to see me more and we've been talking a lot especially about her trusting me.
"so its your last night here, how do you feel about that?" the therapist, linda asked.
I began playing with my fingers looking down and then looked at her. 
"i'm scared i'll relapse and ruin things again but a part of me knows I won't do that. I guess it's just the thoughts, you know?" I said.
"that's completely normal scarlet but you can't let the fear of that bring you down. If you do feel like you'll relapse it's okay to tell those around you that you trust. It's okay for you to let others help you." she said looking at me. 
" but I don't want to be a burden or just bother anyone. Won't it be annoying for people to hear about my problems?" I ask. 
"Scarlet, people would rather hear about your problems and try to help you than having to show up at your funeral. You need to allow yourself to talk to people just like you do to me. At first you wouldn't even talk to me but I was patient with you and you saw that so you began to talk because you felt like you could trust me, right? so when you leave here, try and trust more." she said. 
I nodded looking down. 
"Do you think gracie will ever trust me again?" I asked. 
"I can't answer that considering it would be her decision but I can say that you guys love each other from what you've told me and I think things will be okay but you can't just expect things to go back to normal. It takes time to build trust and she has every right to take time to do that." she said. 
"I know it takes time to build trust because she was very patient with me when we got back together even if it was hard for her too so I know that now is my time to be patient with her. I really don't want to mess things up again and I just blame myself so fucking much that it hurts like hell." I said, with my voice cracking at the end. 
I put my hands on my head as I began to cry. 
We continued talking about my feelings through out the session and she told me ways that I could cope with my thoughts once I leave tomorrow morning. This place truly has helped me a lot and i'm ready to just go back to my normal life. I miss being in the studio and recording music. I miss Gracie and my friends and my brother. 
Gracies POV- 
I woke up early around 6am because weenie wouldn't stop laying near or on my head because apparently that's more comfortable to him. I was downstairs drinking a cup of water when my phone went off and I picked it up to see that Scar was calling me. 
Phone call: 
G- Scar? are you okay? wait you're calling me from your phone?
S- yes they're letting me leave early instead of at 9. Did I wake you? i'm sorry if I did but I just didn't want anyone else to come pick me up. If you don't want to it's fine and i'll just call Finley.
G- no no i'm on my way i'll be there soon. 
S- thank you gracie.
G- yeah of course. 
End Of Phone call. 
I quickly looked for my keys and then put my shoes and jacket on. I'm just glad she's out now even if it may be a little weird between us. It felt weird not calling her babe or baby especially because I really wanted to.
As I drove up to the rehab center I saw her sitting on the bench outside. She got up once she saw my car and smiled. I pulled up and got out which made her raise her eyebrow in confusion. 
I smiled at her and ran into her arms, I just needed to hug her. 
"hello to you too." she whispered as she hugged me tightly. 
I looked up at her as I was still in her arms and smiled.
"you okay?" I asked. 
she smiled and nodded taking a deep breath in. 
"yeah i'm getting there." she said letting a little laugh out. 
"its okay. um come on I can drop you off at your place?" I asked. 
she pressed her lips together and nodded. 
We both walked over to my car and got in.
The car ride was a little silent but we talked here and there but I get it, we're in a weird place right now and she did just get out of rehab so I know it's weird for her. 
"Are you sure you'll be okay? like alone tonight?" I asked looking over at her as I parked in front of her apartment building. 
"yeah I think i'll be fine. thank you for picking me up." she said, taking her seat belt off. 
I heard her take a deep breath in and she then looked at me. 
"please drive home safely. I love you so much gracie and I know you can't be with me right now and that's no ones fault but mine so i'll be patient with you. my heart will always be yours and I know-" she said, looking back down. 
I cupped her face with my hands making her look back up at me and she had tears in her eyes. 
"hey i'm right here okay? I love you so much too scar it's just I need space to think still. This isn't forever. I just need time and space because i'm still hurting about everything but that doesn't mean I don't love or care for you or about us anymore." I said looking into her eyes. 
She nodded and began to cry more and put her head on my chest so I wrapped my arms around her as she cried in my arms. I started to cry as well but kept quiet because I know this is very hard on her. I mean, she literally just got out of rehab because she has an addiction to drugs. She needs to be alone too and work through this for herself because if she doesn't she's not only hurting herself but others around her. 
After a few minutes of me holding her she looked up at me still in my arms. 
"thank you for always taking care of me." she whispered. 
I leaned in and kissed her gently. 
"i'm in love with you and will always be here for you." I whispered. 
she nodded and hugged me again but then let go. 
"um- I should uh probably go up now i'm sorry for crying." she said. 
"you don't need to apologize for that. get in bed and try to get more sleep." I said slightly smiling at her. 
"get home safe and text me when you do, okay?" she said getting out of the car. 
"yeah, okay." I said smiling at her. 
She smiled at me and then closed my car door and walked into her apartment building. 
Being in love is such a strange thing.