Chapter 46

                                    

                                          
You groaned as you slowly opened your eyes. Immediately, you became aware of your surroundings. You sat up in bed, a wave of dizziness swept over you. You placed a hand on your forehead and shook off the feeling. 
"You're finally awake, hm."
You turned toward the sound of the voice. A smile came across your face. "Deidara."
He frowned at you. "I'm laying here because of you aren't I? Hm."
"What?" your smile fell.
"Why would you do that?!" Deidara yelled and glared at you. "Why would you run lightning through me?!"
"Would you rather I just let you blow yourself up?!" you demanded, your voice rising, as you glared at him. 
"I would have brought him down, hm!"
"No you would not have! You would've blown yourself up, committed suicide, for nothing!"
"How would you know?! You never even let me do it, hm!"
"For your own sake Dei, he summoned a snake and disappeared! If he had used that when you were there, you would NOT have brought him down!"
"It doesn't matter! I would have left a great reminder of me and my art! Hm!"
"If that's how you think then you're a fool," you said lowly and got off the bed. You stalked over to Deidara. He shrank back slightly but you grabbed the front of his shirt and pulled him toward you. "You think killing yourself in order to kill another person is something to remember? Blowing yourself up and leaving a scar on this earth as all to remember you by... you're pathetic Deidara. I thought you knew better than this, but it appears hatred drives everyone insane, wouldn't you say so too? Dei?"
"What do you mean?" Deidara asked with a glare.
"What you're feeling now... I've felt something similar to it before," you began. "But yours is anger... towards me. What I felt was stronger—much stronger—than what you're feeling now. I have felt hatred, I have spoken ill words toward someone, and I was scared..." you let go of Deidara's shirt and looked down. "Scared of myself. I've said things I know I never should have... I have spoken words of hatred. I have carried hate in my heart. When Itachi was killed I... I came across Sasuke. I told him so many things I know shouldn't have... but I can't take it back. This is what happens when you hate someone, Deidara. You say things you don't mean... you do things you'll later regret. You think about revenge, and some might actually take revenge. You went after Sasuke, all because he took Orochimaru down when you wanted to be the one to do so. You wanted to feel something more than just being tossed aside, you wanted to finish Sasuke off... and then target Itachi. Can you truly not put your negative feelings aside?"
Deidara stared at you with wide eyes and mouth slightly ajar as if to say something, but no sound came.
"He is able to, it's whether he wants to or not that counts."
You spun around and saw a raven haired male sitting up in bed. "Itachi."
He turned to face you. "What did you tell Sasuke?"
"I..." you looked away from him and stared at an empty flower vase. "I told him that he didn't deserve my protection, that he didn't deserve to have joined the Akatsuki, he didn't deserve to be called an Uchiha, but most importantly... he didn't deserve to call you elder brother," you looked back at Itachi and noticed his head was hanging and he was staring at the ground. "I know I shouldn't have said that. But I just... I felt..." you clenched your teeth and shut your eyes. "I felt so much anger towards him... so much hate..."
"Don't worry about it," Itachi murmured. Your eyes snapped open and you looked at Itachi. He smiled slightly at you. "A new bond sometimes starts like that. You might get along with Sasuke later on. But you have to discard all the negative feelings you have for him and everyone else."