Violence Against Nature

                                    

                                          
I sat backstage watching Noah put on his ski mask before the next song. I wasn't too thrilled about it. And he could tell. 
"What's up babe, you alright" he said as he tapped my shoulder. I just laughed. 
"I can't take you seriously with that on" I laughed as I hid my smile with my hand. 
"What don't like it" he said with his hands on hips posing. 
"Quite the contrary Mr Sebastian" I said softly as I stood up slowly and leaned up to whisper in his ear "it drives me crazy" 
"You better watch it" he grinned as he pulled me close putting his index finger onto my bottom lip, as we leaned in to kiss the door opened and we pulled away from each other. And there she was. Poppy. 
"Hi I'm Moriah, I've heard so much about you" she said in a whisper as she went to shake my hand. 
"Sarah" I grinned slightly "nice to meet you" I said as i glanced up at Noah. "The song is great by the way" 
"It's all Noah, he's extremely talented" she said as she smiled up at him. I wanted to slap it right off of her. She rubbed his arm and the jealousy was hard to hide. And noah could see it on my face.
"You ready Noah?" She asked him as she gave him a fist bump. 
"Always" he said as he cracked his neck from side to side and then punching the air. I let out a deep breath and followed them to watch. 
"Speak in diatonics, motivation diabolic
I'm religion better locked in a box
Picture-perfect image, more powerful every minute Baby, I am everything that you're not" 
"ROAR" 
His Roar made me giggle. Watching them perform this together was torture. I couldn't help but wonder if Noah had an attraction to her or her for him. I knew he liked her music and was a fan of hers for a while. But the way they are on stage together is almost as if they would make the perfect couple. They had many common interests, but Noah and I were complete opposites other than our love for music. 
"Violence against nature" 
They both came running backstage together, laughing and hugging, celebrating the performance. And I just stood there with my arms folded, waiting for Noah to run up to me, but he didn't. I knew she wasn't going to be on the tour much longer, and I was relieved. This all stems from my trust issues from my relationship with Nick. And it wasn't fair to Noah, but I couldn't help it. I faked a smile and stood near a corner as I watched them celebrate. I walked back to the dressing room and sat on the sofa scrolling through social media to put my mind on something else. I jumped as I heard the door slam open. 
"I fucking love that song!" Noah exclaimed. 
"Yeah... it's really good" I said nervously. 
"Why are you being so quiet, this isn't like you" he said as he held his hands up. 
I didn't want to cause an issue with us so I made something up. 
"Im just tired that's all, this tour is a lot after a while" I said as I faked a yawn. 
"I can understand that" he said as he walked up to sit next to me caressing my cheek. 
"Hey how about after the show we order some room service and watch a movie?" he asked as he lifted my chin up to kiss me. 
"Sur- I mean sounds fun" I said as he kissed me before he ran back out to the stage. And as always I followed right behind him. 
I mouthed the words to Just Pretend on the side of the stage, I loved when he performed that song. He always sang it with such passion. I got lost in the moment of the song everytime. As he waved his arms to the music with the crowd I couldn't help but smile and think how I lucky I was to have someone like him. 
The show was over and noah was putting all of his clothes into his bag neatly. He was always so organized unlike me and it drove me nuts. 
"Noah come on, I'm tired, just shove it in there" I said as I rolled my eyes throwing my head back. 
"Hey quit it, one day you'll appreciate me being so organized, most men aren't" he said as he winked at me. 
"You're so annoying" I said with a grin. 
"But you like it" 
And I did. I've been on tour with Noah for a 3 months now. I missed chrissy but I enjoyed spending time with him. Getting to know him off stage. And growing closer with the guys. It felt like a family. And noah felt like home. But he still never asked me to be his girlfriend officially and I was fine with taking things slow. Something else I was not used to. 
"He- hey Noah" 
"What's up babe" he said as he was still folding his shirts. I hesitated to ask him this but for my own sanity I had to. 
"Poppy, do yo- do you lik- are you attracted to her?" I finally managed to get out. He laughed and turned to me. 
"Yeah I mean I like her but not like that, I like her style and she brought van to life, the vision I had for that song was her but that's all it is, we're coworkers that's it, why do you ask?" 
"I'm sorry I shouldn't have even brought it up, I jus- I need to work on my trust issues I guess" I said embarrassed. 
"No worries babe, you have nothing to worry about sweet girl, I promise, now come on let's go relax" he said as he put his arm around my shoulder we finally left the venue.