Chapter 10 (Dear him)

                                    

                                          
Wednesday,
1 February 2024
Dear Him,
It has been two days since I have talked to you. Many things happened. I guess you already know why I am back to you again. 
Yes, I am again feeling afraid and want some consolation from you. 
I have fainted two times in these two days. 
First time when I got to know that he is coming in 7 days and second time is today.
Something unexpected happened today. 
I was on my way back home when someone called me. 
When I received it, nobody spoke from the other side but in a few seconds I heard 'the' music playing in the background.
You know about the music right? I have told you earlier. 
I cut the call and before I can compose myself I received a text that says
"missed me ?" 
I can't hold control on myself Dear him. And I fainted. 
Am I boring you ? 
With all these similar stories that I always told you. Don't you get bored? 
I am sorry if I am doing that. But I have no one else beside you. 
Oh yes, there is something else I want to tell you. 
Don't make of me after hearing this.
I met a guy on my way to the university.
No it is more likely that I bumped into a guy and we had a little fight.
Well, that was his mistake but he said a lot of mean things to me. 
He called me ill mannered.
He was rude. I said sorry to him although it should be him asking for a apology. 
By the way that's not the thing that I want to tell you, the thing is that he turns out to be my history teacher. 
Ridiculous. Isn't it?
I have done something embarrassing when he introduced himself. 
Let it be a talk of another day. 
His eyes.
Those chocolatey brown eyes. 
His eyes are so similar to 'him'.
You know who I mean right? 
I mean to..........Zafar.
I am mentioning his name for the first time to you right? 
That Rude man has a nice name too. It was Haider. I don't know his full name. He is tall and masculine. 
His hairs are black and little curly. His face has a perfect shape with a sharp jawline. 
Don't think of me as a creep. I wouldn't have seen him so keenly if his eyes were not similar to him. 
I was looking at him to make sure that he  is not Zafar. 
I have to say he is good looking but rude.
Let's keep him aside. 
Dear him, do you think that my life can be of a normal girl's life. 
Atleast for once I want to live freely without any fear. I want to do stupid teenage things. I want to fall in love with someone who is kind, courageous, beautiful and who has cute smile with dimples. Who has low voice and talk politely. 
I want something that is out of my reach isn't it? 
                                                  -Farah.





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Sorry for the short chapter.
All the chapters of Farah writing in a diary will be short because it will only include her writing 🙃🩷
Thank you for reading 🎀