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*sh warning
"my baby are you ok?" billie says, coming over to me.
immediately i start crying. my face stings, i think im bleeding from his rings, and his blunt burned my hand. billie quickly grabs me before taking me to emilia's master bedroom. she sits me down on the bed and runs to the bathroom attached to the main room. i hear her running water and she comes back with a cold towel. 
"lay down and lay this on your face." 
i can't stop crying and she wipes each of my tears away. she grabs my arm when she sees the burn on my hand from cash's blunt.
"oh baby.." she grabs another cold towel and starts to roll my sleeve up. i realize what she's doing when it's too late. 
she saw my scars.
the fact i relapsed two nights ago doesn't help.
i look at her and immediately look away, crying harder. i literally just met this woman and she knows half of my life and i have not stopped crying around her.
"come here.." she says softly before hugging me. she rubs my hair and doesn't let go. 
"i don't want to see him tonight billie.."
"shh.. you're gonna stay with me tonight don't worry."
"what?" i ask, "i'm sorry, you don't have to-"
"i want to. and to be honest you don't have a choice. just do not leave this party please." she says.
"i won't."
she grabs my phone and gives it to me, asking without saying for me to unlock it. i put in my password and give it back to her. a few seconds later she gives it back to me. 
"do you want some alone time?"
i nod, and she nods back.
she smiles at me before leaving the room.
i open my phone and see a text from a contact i don't remember making.
billie<3
whenever you want to leave, text me.
i scream into my pillow. i have billie eilish's number. i'm going home with billie eilish. wtf is going on. 
i go to the bathroom mirror and inspect my face. there is obviously blood and marks from where he hit me. i go through emilia's cabinets for makeup and start redoing mine. once it's perfect, i walk out.
as i walk back into the main bedroom, i see a naked emilia and a random man on her bed.
"oh my god, im so sorry."
she laughs and i run out. i'm met with anger. it all comes back to me. cash calling me a bitch, pushing billie, slapping me. god i am fuming. i run down to the bar emilia set up and start pouring myself drinks on drinks. i've never been much of a drinker, but i guess tonight changes that. 
with every shot my throat burns and the world becomes a little more blurry. but i don't care. i poured at least 100 different types of liquor in this shot glass. i've taken two fireball shooters, and i took emilia's pen from her bathroom secretly before i left. oops.
i hate drugs but i hit emilia's cart at least twenty times. 
the world was spinning, my mind was everywhere, i couldn't see. 
"lila!" 
i hear someone saying my name repeatedly, but i just keep dancing to the random music playing. i start to stumble around the floor into people. finally, my legs give out under me and im too tired to lift myself up again. 
then i feel someone do it for me.
"mrs lila we are headed home." i can just barely hear billie say over my spinning mind and the loud music. 
she carries me out to the parking lot with no struggle and lays me down in her backseat. i feel the car doors shut and she starts the car.
i start to feel the liquor coming back up.
i cannot puke in billie's car.
"billie im gonna-"
"out the window babe."
she rolls down the window next to my seat and i lean out and throw up. she sets a water bottle in my lap before driving off.
i slowly come back to my senses. i am in billie's car, im still high but somewhat sober after drinking a shit ton of alcohol. i got slapped by my boyfriend. i am going to billie's house.
i am going to billie's house.
billie eilish.
i'm realizing all this so quickly. it never processed before.
"my boyfriend won't be home tonight so you don't need to be embarrassed." she says.
boyfriend.
hm.
i put my head out the window and feel the air blowing through me. before i know it, billie pulls into her driveway.
she opens the door for me and makes sure i can walk properly before letting me in. she walks me to the room i'll be staying in. she hands me a set of pajamas to change into. i quickly do so, i can't stand this sweater.
she comes in ten minutes later with popcorn and soda.
"i was wondering if we could like, talk about our lives. get to know each other." she says.
"that's a weird request." i say.
"well i usually don't just bring people home if i don't know them like a sister."
"how about you tell me about you. you already know enough about me." i say.
"that's not true." she laughs. "but oookay i'll tell you about myself."
we talk for awhile about our lives. our family, who we've loved, literally everything. it's funny how i met this girl six hours ago and she knows just as much as my closest friends now. 
"dude it's one am." she says tiredly. she starts to get up from the bed we were in.
"wait billie." i say.
"hm?"
"can you sleep in here tonight?"
her face softens before she crawls into the bed. we talk for a bit longer before she drifts off to sleep, and i do too.