Past & Present

                                    

                                          
(Slight t/w: mentions of sexual assault)
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(Kaminari's POV)
Kyouka and I have been officially dating for a little over a month now. All of our friends know now, but Kirishima and Sero were the last ones to find out. 
I guess we forgot to tell them, so when they saw me kiss her, they were both pretty confused. 
"Wait, when did this happen??" Kirishima exclaimed.
"Uh...like a month ago." I shrugged.
"And you didn't tell us?!"
All our friends were happy for us. They all thought we made a good pair.
I was a bit worried about how this relationship would affect our friend group. If things didn't end well between us, I feel like our friends would choose sides, and I don't want to make things awkward between anyone. 
I'll just do my best to make sure things go well. I want her to be happy. I want us to be happy together.
Kyouka's been coming over to my place a bit more lately. We study, watch movies, play music, and cook together. I feel like we've gotten even more comfortable around each other. I think I figured out what she likes and doesn't like in terms of affection. 
We've gotten comfortable with kissing and holding each other. My favorite thing is when she giggles and I can feel her smile while we kiss. It's adorable.
Oh man, but I really love it when she hugs me so tight. Sometimes, she'll bury her face in my chest or my neck. I love that so much. It makes me feel all strong and protective. 
I love everything about this girl. 
I remember in high school, she came to me when she was feeling down. She would say negative things about herself sometimes. I always lifted her back up. No matter how many times she said those things, I always told her she was wrong until she started believing it. 
It seems her confidence is much better now. I'm proud of her. 
In high school, I cared a lot about other people. I cared about my friends, but I also cared a lot about what people thought of me. The first two years of high school, I was too focused on that. I wasn't being fully true to myself. Third year was when I felt like I truly discovered myself. Everything started to make sense. 
Now that I'm with Kyo, I feel even more positive. I have a good outlook on life. I feel like everything's gonna work out for me. 
I know we haven't been together that long yet, but I've already thought about the future. If we got married. If we lived together. I can't help it sometimes. All these things I used to just daydream about, they don't seem so far out of reach anymore. 
I couldn't be more in love. 
(Jirou's POV)
I think Denki and I have reached a certain phase...
Recently, we've been doing a lot more cuddling and kissing and stuff like that. It's like we can't get enough. 
When we're doing this stuff, he's always super gentle with me. He asks before doing anything, and he always makes sure I'm comfortable.
The other day, we were kissing like usual. I was wearing a cropped shirt. I don't think he meant to, but his hand slipped under my shirt slightly. This made me flinch. It caught both of us by surprise.
"Oh, s-sorry." He says, "Did I..."
"No, no, it's not you." I insist.
He lets me go, sitting beside me, "Is everything okay?" 
I sigh. I wasn't sure how long I could keep this from him, but I knew it had to come out eventually. I had to tell him.
"I'm kind of scared of doing anything sexual right now..." I say, looking down, "It's not you. You always make sure I'm okay with what we're doing, it's just...something happened in my last relationship." 
It was quiet for a moment. I felt uneasy just thinking about it.
"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." He says.
But I had to tell him at some point. Might as well do it now.
I take a deep breath, "You know how I told you my ex wanted to get serious too fast?"
He nods.
"Well...that involved sex." I started to choke on my words.
Denki looked worried, but I kept going. 
"Before I broke up with him, he forced me to have unprotected sex with him." My eyes started to water, "I told him over and over that I didn't want to, but...I couldn't stop him." 
Denki put his hand on my shoulder very slowly. 
"I love you, Denki, I really do." I say, rubbing my eyes, "I love how you make me feel, I'm just a little traumatized, you could say."
He shakes his head slowly, "I would never do anything you're not comfortable with."
"I know. It's not your fault..."
His hand moves to wipe the hair out of my face. 
"How 'bout I let you take the lead from now on." He says, "You do what you're comfortable with, and you tell me what you want from me." 
I was able to smile at him, "You'd let me do that?"
He nods, "Absolutely."
I run my hand over his hair, staring into his eyes. He looked at me so intently. 
"Thank you." I whisper.
He takes my hand, moving it over to cup his cheek.
"Anything for my beautiful girl."
I hug him. His hands were more gentle than ever. 
"You can hug me like you always do, it's okay." I laugh softly. 
"Just making sure." He says. 
I felt safe in his arms. 
He loves me so much and treats me so well. I have to hang on to him. He might be the one. 
He moves his face right in front of mine, still holding me.
"Can I kiss you?" He whispers. 
I just nod before holding his face with both of my hands and kissing him softly. 
A love like this is hard to come by.  
He's the one for me.
I'm sure.