Angels like you

                                    

                                          
What did he mean? 
After that night. Noah and I kept in touch. Tour was going well. And I was able to see videos all over tiktok. They blew up quick. I stumbled upon edit after edit of Noah and the guys. Making me miss them. Especially noah. I kept myself busy though. Chrissy and I started going to the gym together which I really loved doing. Chrissys birthday was coming up and she wanted to go out for drinks and karaoke. As much as I hated singing in front of people I wanted to do it for her. 
"You almost ready birthday girl" 
"Yes let me just finish my hair and we can go" 
I sat on the couch waiting for chrissy and Noah calls me. Which he had called me every night around the same time. 
"Hey bootiful" 
"Hey beautiful boy" 
"Whatcha up to" 
"Getting ready to go out for Chris's birthday, drinks and karaoke" 
I can literally hear Noah smiling through the phone. 
"That's my girl, show em what you got" 
"A few shots and I should be good to go" 
"I'm about to go to bed myself, I'm not feeling too good, I really thought we were gonna have to cancel tonight's show but I manged to pull through" 
"Aww I'm sorry I hope you feel better" 
"I'll be alright, tell chrissy happy birthday for me and have fun and be careful and message me when you get home so I know you're safe" 
"I will.... and noah... I miss you. Alot" 
"I miss you too, bye beautiful" 
I held the phone up to my chest. How is this gonna work. He's so far away. How can I keep this going? What even is this? I know he can't have any sort of commitment to me especially right now. Getting lost into my thoughts I didn't even notice chrissy in front of me. 
"Sarah, hello. Are you ready" 
"Shit sorry, yeah let's go" 
I needed to go out and let loose and try my best to get my mind off of this subject. 
Shot after shot after shot, chrissy and I were having so much fun. I had forgot that she had signed me up to sing. And before I knew it I heard my name being announced. 
"Ah shit, here we go" 
"Whooooo get it girl" chrissy was clapping and encouraging the people in the bar to do the same. 
Holding the microphone and staring at the screen it all just came out of me. 
"I know that you're wrong for me, gonna wish we never met on the day I leave, I brought you down to your knees, cause they say that misery loves company, it's not your fault I ruin everything and its not your fault I can't be what you need, baby angels like you can't fly down hell with me... I'm everything they said i would be" 
All I can see is Noah. And how bad for him I am. I need to cut my loses. I need to let him go. I can't do this to myself and him. It's not fair this isn't going to work. I can't let my past go. All the heartbreak. So scared of the thought of love again. I make my way back to the table and chrissy is talking to people at the table next to us. I use this as an opportunity to step outside and get some air. 
"Hey you have an amazing singing voice" a voice from behind me says.
I turn around startled to see this tall, handsome yet mysterious looking man. 
"Thanks" 
"I'm Lyle what's your name" 
"Sarah, nice to meet you" 
"Well sarah can I buy you a drink" 
Now normally I'd say yes and then me and this guy would probably end up hooking up and then I'd wake up to regret it and so on and so forth. 
"Actually I think I've had enough for the night thank you though" 
"Fair enough, well can I get your number at least, I know you don't know me but I noticed you earlier and didn't have the balls to approach you" he chuckles as he rubs the back of his neck.
"Um sure" 
We exchange numbers and I walk inside to grab chrissy because at this point I'm feeling nauseous and just want to go to bed. Why did I give that guy my number? Oh well. 
*ding* 
"Hey it's Lyle, make it home safe" 
Before I could respond another text pops up.
"Hey beautiful, haven't heard from you, make it home alright" 
Noah, noah, noah... why can't I quit you!