12. Storms & Sorry's

                                    

                                          

Aegon hadnt remembered the last time that Seraphina allowed him into her bed without having drunk a bottle of wine. The night before his coronation didnt count, she didnt know he snuck into her chambers and snuggled up drunkenly beside her. But this very night, mark the day, something magical happened. 
Seraphina Baratheon lay beside her husband willingly. It was a start. 
Aegon stared back at her, completely sober, she was beautiful. He didnt know why he felt the need to self sabotage them. He always did it. He didnt even give them a chance and now it was as though he made them enemies. 
"It's okay Romeo." Sera cooed kissing along his little face. Aegon sat up, lips twisting. "It's just a little storm." 
"He doesnt like it either." Aegon remarked. 
"You scared of a little storm?" Sera pondered meeting his gaze, thunder cracked across the sky and Aegon flinched. 
"Why do you think I drink so much during storms?" Aegon questioned. 
"You drink too much every day." Sera corrected. 
"It's Because I dont like the storms. I can't fall asleep." Aegon corrected. 
"And every other day?" Sera countered. 
"It's because I'm an ass and an alcoholic." Aegon agreed. 
"Glad we can agree on that." Sera murmured. "Look if you want a drink go get a drink. I'm not going to judge you more than I already am." She assured him as she got renly to settle. He snuggled up beside her, his thumb lodged in his mouth. 
"No I... I dont want to be dependent on it." Aegon corrected slowly. "I want to be better." Aegon reminded her. "For you.' Sera frozen before her head turned just slightly to him.
"It's going to take time for me to actually like you." Sera informed him honestly. "and if you can't keep your act together long enough-"
"I want to change. I need to change. I'm the king for heavens sake and the moment you left I nearly had a mental break down in the skies without you." 
"What?" Sera rasped. 
"Sera- Gods you make me so crazy and you never care if I'm there or not and you just do your thing and nothing phases you, you didnt care and I'm just-"
"Nothing phases me?" Sera countered. "You think I wanted my husband to fuck every whore in kings landing? You think I like when you stumble into my chambers drunk and smelling of other women? You think I dont care? That it didnt phase me? It hurt Aegon. I pushed you away because you were a dick. Every thing you did was dick-ish." 
"Sera-"
"So dont tell me that I didn't care because I cared a lot, I just couldnt show it because if  I did I would have been crying nonstop for the first few years of marriage and that was no way to live." Sera commanded. "I wanted us to be friends Aegon, I wanted you and me and the children to be a family. We were both forced into this union but you made your mind up about me from the moment you saw me."  Sera whimpered. "So what was it about me that swayed you away so fast?"
"It wasnt you." Aegon corrected. 
"Yeah right. What? Not blonde enough? Not big enough tits for your liking?"
"Seraphina it wasnt about you." Aegon barked. Sera tensed turning away from him. "It was about my mother." 
"What about her?"
"She was forcing me to marry a stranger." Aegon reminded her. "And the day before she was deciding to marry me off to Helaena and she was just throwing around my life and my future at her whims. It wasnt about you it was because I hate my mother. She has never loved me yet she gets all the say in my life and in my future and I didnt have any." Aegon declared. "Sera I wanted to anger her, I ended up hurting you instead, I'm sorry for that. I had thought I pushed you too far away and... I just kept pushing you away because it was easier than actually getting to know you better... I am sorry, Sera."
"Thank you for saying that." Sera whispered. "Get some sleep, big day tomorrow." 
"You will come with me? You will come home?" Aegon questioned as he lay back down beside her, little Renly between them. 
"Sure... because you clearly need me." 
"I do." Aegon agreed. "Thank you." 
"Good night Aegon." Sera leaned over kissing his cheek. It felt like the start of something new, it felt so right to be here together again. Possibly for the first time they were actually together as one.