My stomach dropped as I felt like I knew what was coming next. "I want to offer you the position in the euros squad. More specifics will come out when you come in to St George's and we have a meeting together..."
"Woah—woah—woah. You are talking like I have already agreed?" 
"You don't accept?" That's the one thing with Sarina, her tone is always the same and it's usually nice and for the most part calm, like during this call. 
I rubbed my head in frustration trying to avoid any contact with an even more confused looking Leah. I obviously want to accept but something shitty and pathetic in me is saying nah fuck being a second choice. Call it pride or whatever but that bad side is saying that she is only picking me because of an injury to a key player but there are meant to be back up players for that? Like I don't know... the rest of the people who are in the squad already? She doesn't just choose 11 people. My head was a mess. 
Did Leah know about this? Because if she did, that's pretty shitty not to mention it. 
"I'm not saying that. I just think I need to think, I'm not sure why but I'm being as honest with you as I can be Sarina and I just need a few hours to process." The use of the name peaked Leah's head up as she demanded I put the phone on speaker in what I would class as a high end restaurant. Shaking my head and swatting her hand away I shush her so I can actually pay attention. 
"I understand Rori, I do and I appreciate your honesty as always. How about...you let me know tomorrow at some point? It doesn't have to be tonight and it doesn't have to be first thing in the morning but I can't push it anymore than some point tomorrow. If that works with you..."
"It does." I immediately say cutting her off. "I mean, thankyou. I will give you a call at some point tomorrow so I can think about everything. I'm sorry if that sounds shitty of me—wait no fuck—no wait." I let out a huff in frustration. 
Why can I have a shread of professionalism about me? If I'm not on the pitch it's just not there and now I'm swearing, on the phone, to the fucking England manger. Even Leah is shaking her head trying to hide her laugher from across the table. 
"Rori, calm down." She laughs into my ear, "Please don't ever change. You actually, believe it or not, made my evening. Everything you have said is completely valid and just remember things will come clearer if we have a meeting. Just remember no later than tomorrow at some point! Put it in your calendar or alarm or...anything because I know you will forget. Enjoy the rest of your evening, I'm sorry if I have interrupted you." 
I can't help but smile at her words. Sarina is the only person who I have worked with that has never scolded me for actions others have. Even Jonas, I love him but he can't fully expect the real me...and I get it, the real me is so unpredictable. 
Sarina is just different. 
"Thankyou Sarina. I still remember, trust me. I will definitely put in everything anyway but still I want you to know I will remember regardless. Have a good evening too, I'm glad I was able to make it alittle better!" 
With the goodbyes done I finally hung up the phone and took a deep breath I wasn't aware I was holding. "Unbelievable..." Leah says from across the table. Initially I thought she might have been alittle mad? Or something, I'm not sure why but then her smile broke through with the cutest laugh anyone could imagine. 
"What?" I ask confused but unable to keep up my sturn exterior.
"How you could get away with blue murder..."
"I'm an angel, what can I say?" I smirked bringing the glass of wine to my lips. Me and Leah locked eyes in an intense stare out with neither of us wanting to break. It made me forget about the actual call for a second and voided my thought with how long it would be until Leah burst and asked me what that was about. It became clear the more I talked on the phone that she had no idea about this.