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Chapter 5
Denial
TW: Homophobia, Self harm
*~Bianna's POV~*



I woke up a few hours later and walked downstairs to find the book I'd left laying around the house somewhere.
"No I'm telling you, she's definitely one of them" Fitz's voice echoed through the door to my fathers office which was slightly ajar.
"Are you completely sure cause you brought her to the Lost Cities Fitz! What if she really isn't what if she's human!" dad bellowed.
"Yes dad! How can you explain the marks appearing on her arm or the fact she is literally a flasher!" Fitz exclaimed.
I creped over to the door silently my curiosity taking over.
"Fitz, she might've been human and you brought her to the Lost Cities!"
Who?  I wondered.
"It was the only thing I could think of! She was gonna walk away I was gonna lose her!" Fitz exclaimed.
"Fitz that was incredibly irresponsible, she hadn't shown you those marks or that she was a flasher when you took her" dad sighed.
"Yeah but-"
"No buts!" dad interrupted.
"Dad" Fitz sighed.
"Now what were you saying about the purple did you say? The purple eyes" dad asked.
Purple eyes? What?
"Her eyes were purple, I don't know why or how but they are" Fitz explained.
"If she really is an elf we have to get her out of the Forbidden Cities as fast as possible I'll send you to get her tomorrow, I'll schedule her Foxfire interview for 2 o'clock don't be late" dad informed.
"Alright" Fitz sighed and I could him stand up and walk toward the door.
I scrambled away from the door.
"Bianna?" I turned to look at the door.
"Y- yeah?" I stuttered.
"Where you just listening" Fitz asked from the door.
"N- no what?" I chuckled.
"Your a horrible liar, don't tell anyone about what you just heard its highly confidential alright" Fitz said sternly.
I nodded and hurried downstairs to find my book.
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I stared at the pages of my book but my mind couldn't focus on the words as they blurred together.
Who was the girl they were talking about?
Is this why Fitz keeps disappearing?
Okay wait no that's obviously why he's disappearing
Purple eyes?
I sighed closing my book.
I stared at the ceiling as images of a girl with deep purple eyes flashed through my mind.
The girl giggled her features twisting into a smile.
Her curly blond hair was insanely poofy and pulled into a tight slicked back ponytail and her freckled nose scrunched with her smile. 
Shit if I meet this girl I hope she's that pretty.
What no! Why am I thinking that! No girls like boys not other girls! 
For fucks sake!
I can't keep thinking these things!
Its weird!
"Bianna dinners ready" my door opened and my mum peaked her head through.
"I'll be down in a sec" I told her and she nodded closing the door as she left.
I shook my head clearing the image of the gorgeous purple eyed girl from my mind.
I tried to ignore her smiling face and silky blonde hair appearing in my mind with every step.
Jeez Bianna pull yourself together its just another girl the be FRIENDS with
Nothing more!
Yeah nothing more
I entered the dinning room with a sigh.
I quickly ate my dinner and disappeared back to my room.
Different images of the girl flashed through my mind.
An image of her soft pink lips on mine appeared.
I clutched my head.
"Stop it Bianna! Stop stop stop!" I whispered tugging on my hair.
As I squeezed my eyes closed the image grew more vivid.
I hit the heel of my hand on my head repeatedly whispering stop to myself.
The girls hands were wrapped around my waist now mine around her shoulders.
Fuck
Her hands brushed through the ends of my hair twirling it around her fingers.
What the fuck do I do
I felt tears pour from my eyes.
Your so fucking weird Bianna! No one else thinks like this!
I stumbled to the bathroom turning on the cold water of my shower.
I stepped under the stream the freezing cold water was the only thing I could think of as I sunk to the floor of the shower my clothes stuck to my shaking body.
The water was so cold it hurt but I couldn't bring myself to turn it off.
This is what I deserve
Tears fell from my eyes as I sobbed into my knees.
I stood up after a few minutes turning of the water wiping my tears.
I peeled the wet clothes of my body dropping them to the floor in a pile.
Pulling on my pyjamas I clambered into bed and fell asleep with tears falling from my eyes.



HEY HEY HEYYYYYYYYYYYY
I hate writing homophobia but what can you do 🤷‍♀️
not write homophobia
WHATEVERRRR
I blame the toxic matchmaking system and the ideals of a perfect society where no one can be different.
DO SOMETHING ABT THAT SHANNON 
if there's any trans/non binary/lesbian/gay anything of that sort in the next book I will be incredibly happy.
I would love if like tam or Linh were like a part of the lgbtq  community and it rlly wouldn't surprise me if I'm being honest

ANYWAYS PLEASE PLEASE HAVE SOMETHING TO EAT AND DRINK MY LOVES YOU DESERVE IT SO SO MUCH AND REMEMBER THAT YOU ARE SO LOVED APPRECIATED DESERVING GORGEOUS AND YOU ALL DESERVE THE WORLD <33333
I love you all so so much kiss kiss <333333
-Smithy <3
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