1D: Ziall: Coming Out

                                    

                                          
Summary: Zayn and Niall fight about coming out which ends in heartbreak. Later after a confession of love in the band, they make up.
Word Count:1606
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Zayn's pov 
                          
"Niall! For the last time, I'm just not ready!" I cry.
"Zayn, it's been a year. The guys already know, why can't the world?!"
"Because the world is full of hurtful people!"
"I'm tired of having to hide us Zayn. i want to be able to hug and kiss you like a normal couple would. Does it really matter what other people think?" Niall yells at me.
This is just one of our numerous arguments over coming out to the world.
"If we were to lose our fans, that'd be unfair to the other 3."
"They already said they were ok with it Zayn, as long as we were happy! So what's the reason you don't want people to know? Huh? Are you afraid that they'll look at you differently? That you'll lose your fame?! If you're truly in love it wouldn't matter to you."
"Niall! I love you, I'm just not ready!"
"Ohh! I know what it is, you're ashamed of me!! You don't want people to know because you're ashamed to be dating me."
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Niall's pov
                          
Zayn stands in shock and that's all I need to blow up.
"So you are ashamed to admit that you are dating me?!" 
He doesn't really respond to it, just stands there and stares at the floor.
"Good to know. Good to know you're afraid of what other people think." I say running up to my room. 
We all share a house, that's why I never like fighting. The boys know to leave the room and not bother us though, and for that I'm thankful.
I slam my door and pace back and forth a bit running my fingers through my hair. He doesn't love me. He's ashamed to admit that he's with me. Why? Am I too ugly? Sure I'm not the nicest looking in the band, (A/N actually he's the cutest in my opinion), and maybe I could go to the gym a little more, but the couple times Zayn and I have actually been intimate, he's stared at me like I stare at brownies. 
I just don't get it. 
"Niall?" I hear Harry say.
"Come in. "
"What was all the yelling about?" Liam asks following Harry into my room.
"He's ashamed to be with me, and I think we just kinda broke up. Was I pushing too hard?"
"No! It's been a year Ni. It's about time." Harry says.
"Niall, you need to go talk to him." Liam says with a sympathetic smile as he rubs my arm.
"He hates the idea of people knowing about us. There's nothing more to talk about."
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Zayn's pov
                          
I just don't get it. How can he not understand how nervous I am about this. It's really scary knowing the whole world could turn against us.
"Zayn?" Louis asks walking into my room where I retreated to after the fight.
"I'm an idiot Lou. Such a God damn idiot."
"Well then go tell him that."
"Too late now, I think we broke up."
"Couples get back together all the time. Go do it!" 
"But he's not wrong! I'm not ashamed for say, but I'm not ready. "
"Zayn! It's been a year! Are you really gonna give Niall up because you're scared?!" 
I just say quiet, to be honest I don't know.
"Unbelievable! When you come to your senses and want help planning how to get him back, come talk to me. And you better pray he doesn't move on before you do so." Louis sighs and leaves my room.
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Niall's pov
2 weeks later 
                          
We sit on a couch in the middle of an interview and I'm stuck between Zayn and Liam, Harry and Louis on the other side of Zayn.
"Liam? Can we switch places?" I ask and he nods standing up.
The interviewer looks confused and I tell them I'm feeling claustrophobic.
Zayn scoffs and Liam smacks him.
"So gentlemen, time for the question the fans are waiting for. Who's single, and who's taken?" She asks.
"Single." Zayn says and it nearly breaks my heart all over again. It's confirmed, we are no longer dating. Liam squeezes my hand but it doesn't help, I still want to cry my eyes out.
"Niall?" She asks.
"S-single." I mutter out. 
She goes on to Liam, then Louis and Harry.
"I'm taken by the best person ever." Harry says.
"And who is this girl?" She asks.
"He, is my best friend, my everything. We've been together for 4 months and I couldn't be happier. Louis is my boyfriend." He continues and Louis snuggles into his side.
Harry kisses Louis' cheek, and then Louis kisses him on the lips. 
Liam senses my discomfort at the two of them, and my heart feels like it's shattered. They're not ashamed, not afraid. I look down when I feel a tear roll down my cheek before looking up and glancing at the two lovebirds sneaking kisses. I accidentally catch Zayn's eyes but look away quickly. I can practically feel his body tense.
"So did the guys know?" She asks.
"No. But we figured it was about time that we come out. We know there are going to be haters, but, hey! No matter what there's going to be. If you're straight, gay, bi, male, female, famous or not, there's always going to be someone out there who doesn't want you together or thinks it's wrong, but the important thing is to not give a crap." Louis speaks and Harry pulls him into a big hug.
I wipe away a tear from my cheek and the interview continues. After another half hour of questions about our tour and new songs, we're finally done.
"Well, that's all our time for today. Tune in tomorrow-" she's cut off.
"Wait!" Zayn says standing up and taking a breath.
"I need to say something I should have said months ago. I'm in love with Niall, and we were dating for year before a stupid argument about when we were going to let the public know about us, broke us up." He explains and I just sit in shock before speaking up, standing next to him.
"Zayn. You don't have to do this." I mumble and he just shakes his head.
"No! Niall, I was never ashamed to be with you! I love you! I was just scared about what everyone else would think. I was an idiot, and I wouldn't blame you if you wanted nothing to do with me, but I love you. I love you more than you can possibly imagine. Thanks to Lou and Harry, I finally understand that it doesn't matter what anybody thinks about us. You make me happy, you give me butterflies whenever we kiss, and your laugh lights up my day."
I have tears flowing down my face as he finishes his little speech and he does too. I pull him into a hug and he holds me tightly. 
"I love you too Zayn." I whisper and he chuckles into my neck.
"We're still in an interview babe." He whispers back.
We pull apart but he keeps our hands intertwined, we sit on the couch where the guys have already made some room so we can sit next to each other. 
The lady is balling her eyes out and so is Liam, while Louis and Harry are all cuddled up, tears on their cheeks too.
"Tune in-*sob*- tomorrow, when we have-*hiccup*- Miley Cyrus." She cries and I try not to laugh.
"You have a way with words." I whisper to Zayn and he laughs.
We all give her a hug and leave to our dressing room. The other 3 go to feast from the food table while Zayn and I just sit on the couch, hands intertwined, my head on his chest. 
"I missed you Nialler." He whispers. 
"I missed you too Zaynie." 
"Let's never fight again."
"Agreed." I nod and he kisses the top of my head. 
I look up and he sits us up. I smile looking into his eyes, and he closes the gap between our lips. Butterflies start in my stomach and I wrap my arms around his neck. He cups my cheek with one hand, the other around my waist. He slowly leans me back and crawls on top so he's straddling me.
His tongue swipes my bottom lip and I gladly accept it, opening my mouth. 
"And this ladies and gentlemen, is Ziall!" Louis and the other two say busting in without warning, with a video camera.
"What the hell?" Zayn asks.
"Wave 'hi'! We're live." Liam laughs.
"You're live streaming this?!" I ask, Zayn still on top of me so I can't move. 
"Jeez, you two need to get a room!" Harry chuckles as Lou walks around the couch and tapes Zayn straddling me.
"Zayn." I mumble and he just laughs shaking his head.
"Might as well show them what they want." He whispers in my ear before kissing me. I wasn't expecting it really so I'm in a bit a shock, but not for long as I melt into his embrace.
He places his hands like they were before as do I and the other 3 cheer.
"Say it!!" They all chant.
I smile breaking our turning steamy kiss and look into his eyes.
"I love you Zayn." I say loud enough for the camera to pick up.
"I love you too Niall." He smiles before pulling me back into our kiss.