FORTY-ONE

                                    

                                          

                            

                                
                            
                              
                                  
                              
                              
                                
                                  
                                  
                                
                              
                             
                            
                            
                          
                          
How can I live in this moment?
When my thoughts never feel like my own and don't know how to admit I'm broken?
Bea Miller - I can't breathe 
 DAISY
I didn't let anyone see me. 
Didn't let anyone come near me. 
I walked out of that hell and run right to the entrance as I waited for a cab to get me the fuck out of here.  But then she's right behind me. A fur coat on her shoulders as Mr Park is right beside her. She's smirking while she takes out a cigarette and lights it up between her lips. Blowing the smoke at my face. 
"What did I tell you?" She says, mocking, "I did say when a lioness is triggered, she bites." Then a heartbeat later, "You think I didn't see that tattoo shit coming? I raised that boy, I know how his mind works." She shrugs, "Tattoos can be removed but that video... it will forever be in their heads as long as they live. And I'll make sure to send them all a copy. What man wouldn't want to get himself off on that video?" She turns her head slightly at Mr Park, "Is it done?" He bows at the waist and nods, "Yes." She walks closer and flicks a nail under my chin, "Chin up. You're famous. Men want your autograph or... you." 
I hear footsteps behind us and when I look back, Jin is running towards me but I look away, unable to look him in the eye anymore. His mother keeps pressing on my wounds, "Also, nice try hiding that pregnancy five years ago. You think no one would know?" A car comes to a halt in front of us and Mr Park runs to open the door for her. She says, "It's amazing what money could get you. How many people could bought in your favor. Zane Black is a very nice man. I will look forward to working with him in the future." And she sits in the car. 
Mr Park looks over me one last time and closes her door and gets in the front seat. The car drove off. 
"What pregnancy?" I clench my jaw to stop myself from breaking down. He grabs my arm and asks again impatiently, "What pregnancy, Daisy?" I pull myself away from him and then look at him. 
He hardly shrugged his shirt on and buttoned it up. The fresh tattoo was there, staring at me like a snake would before it bites, and two words were all I could speak. "I'm done." I shake my head. "I'm done." I say it again and my voice breaks, "I'm done." 
A cab stops and I don't look at him another second as I run down and get in it. Before he could even catch me, I yelled at the driver, "Please drive!" Praying that he understands my urgency. Thankfully he did and drove out of there. 
I look back to him standing there but not alone, June and Ae-ra were beside him and watched as I pulled myself away from them. 
♤
I didn't go back to the house. I went to the penthouse instead. Using translations on my phone to explain to the man where I wanted to go. 
Thankfully I had my phone and some cash with me. Enough for the fare. 
I paid him right there, maybe some extra too, and I ran towards the building and into the elevator that was almost closing. But I made it. I didn't let myself break down as I watched the numbers go up and up and up. And right when the elevator doors open, I run towards the penthouse door and let myself in. Only then, I broke down.