🍚Chapter 13🍚

                                    

                                          

Day two of my therapy session I sit down in Dr. Lee's office. 
"Good morning Felix. Did you have a good morning?"
"Good morning and yes."
"Great to hear. Remember where we left off yesterday?"
"Yes."
"Do wanna start from there or talking about something else?"
"Uhm.."
"Don't feel pressured. There's no right or wrong answer.", she smiles. 
"I guess we can start from yesterday."
"Ok that's totally fine. I brought some more tissues just in case."
"Thank you."
I continued talking about my family even though it was painful. 
"My eomma had left so it was just me and my appa. I think that was the main reason for his abuse."
"Why do you think that?"
"Because h-he was angry."
"So he took the anger out on you?"
"Yes."
"Do you have any resemblance to your eomma?"
"I don't remember what she looked like but I know she had freckles."
"When something like this happens most people tend to take their out on themselves or another family member that reminds them of their pain. There's no excuse for that especially for a child."
"Well it was my fault."
"How so?"
"He said it was my fault she left."
"Is that what you actually think or do you believe what he said."
"Uhm...I believe what he said?"
"You sound unsure."
"I don't r-really understand the question. I'm sorry."
"No need to apologize. Instead of answering a confusing question you can ask what do I mean or you can say you don't understand."
"Oh ok."
"I want to know your true feelings about what your appa said to you."
"I-I guess I believed him."
"Are you sure?"
"Y-yes..", I started fidgeting again. 
"What's wrong? Feel free to tell me what it is you're thinking about."
"I...I'm s-scared.", I said quietly.
"You have every right to be. It's natural to be afraid. You're now in the home of friends who can protect you and make you feel safe. We can talk about something else if you like."
I nodded. 
"Ok. Would you like to tell me about your friends?"
The one thing I live for. 
Once the session ended I wait in the car for Minho who went to talk with Dr. Lee. I looked in the mirror and noticed my eyes were a bit red again from crying. 
Hopefully I'll run out of tears and stop crying about him. Minho comes out and we went back home. 
Minho's POV:
I sit in Chan's office going over the coffee shop business. As I read through the inventory I slowly drifted off from thinking about Felix. 
"Minho? Minho!"
"Huh? What? Did you say something?"
"I asked if you want me to order more strawberries and raspberries for your parfait. Are you ok? You seem distracted."
"Just thinking about Felix."
"Oh I see.", he smirks.
"What? Stop smiling like that."
"No wonder you're out of focus."
"I know what you're thinking and it isn't like that. I'm actually concerned."
"It can be both."
"Yeah I think not. My answer is yes to your question before."
"Ok. I won't say any more."
I look at him and he was still smiling like a kid. 
"Why are you still smiling?"
"No reason."
I continued working. I only think of Felix as a younger brother the same as I do with Jisung and Jeongin. After hearing what Dr. Lee had told me only makes want to help him even more. 
Later I make lunch for everyone and based on what Felix's nutritionist said I gave him a proper meal. Then I half it and save the other half for tomorrow. 
He still doesn't eat it all if anything he hardly eats what I give him. But hopefully time will help. 
As we eat I watch him every few minutes and noticed he didn't eat anything. Only food was pushed around to make it seem like he ate. 
'Smart.'
Though he still smiles and laughs like nothing was bothering him. I envied that about him. 
Later that night I sit in his room and helped with replacing the bandages on his back. 
"I noticed you didn't eat anything today."
"Oh. I'm sorry. I tried but it didn't...look appetizing. I'm really sorry."
"It's ok. I won't force you. You'll get better in time."
"I want to be better cause I don't like going to the doctor."
"You don't?"
"I should be dead but I live with all these problems and I know it'll take years to recover. So I wonder what if I do die? Y'all will be so sad."
"Yah look at me. You are not going to die. You lived because you're strong and you don't give up. Believe in yourself ok? Cause I believe in you too."
I felt tears in my eyes and I unconsciously gave him a warm hug. My thoughts come back and quickly pulled away before my emotions get out of hand.
"Ahem. Well have a good night.", I walked out and closed the door. 
'That was close.'
I put my hand over my heart that pounds in my chest. Chan's words come into mind and I didn't want to believe him. But should I?
"Sigh. I need to meditate."