Quattro

                                    

                                          
this chapter contains sexual abuse/rape flashbacks just a warning 

                                                                                             Rose 
'MOM , DAD , i'm home' i scream so they know, i'm back from school. 
'they're not home' my sister's boyfriend , Zayn.
oh no i'm starting to feel really uncomfortable. he's going to do it again. i can't protect myself i always freeze , it's like my body tries to go into a weird mode. i'm starting to shake a little but i don't want to do in front of him, he already has everything he wants from me i don't want to give him the satisfaction of knowing how terrified i am.
'huh where did they go ? ' 
'they went to do some shopping' 
i nod and head to my room , trying to get there before he follows. i wish i could lock my bedroom door but i can't my dad is scared because of last time. i fainted and my door was locked and he had to break the door to get to me. 
why am i scared? well it all started 3 months ago. My boyfriend and i broke up , and it was pretty bad. he took my virginity, and my dad realized it was getting serious so he wanted to have a conversation with him , all he wanted to hear was that he loves me that's all but since he's stupid he said he can 'pull up his zip and walk away' insinuating that i'm a slut. but of course me being 17 years old  i still love him i can't really help that. well after that that's when it all began. my sisters boyfriend started manipulating me , started..... touching me inappropriately and i'm scared to tell my sister or my parents , because my sister is already upset , they have been trying to get pregnant but they miscarried , plus she would blame me , he told me so.....
thankfully he didn't rape me like penetrate me but he did forcefully finger me , i was so sore , i was bleeding. i wish i could scream but i can't everytime this happens i freeze and my voice is gone , im screaming and kicking in my head. 
' hey'
oh shit.
he steps closer to me and puts his hand on my breast, i freeze again. he turn me around really fast so im bending over the counter  where my sink is. he pulls my pants and panties down. wait is he going to ....
'don't be scared i promise this is what's meant to happen'
he opens a condom and he enters me and my eyes swell up with tears. i can't do anything, come on! scream, kick , hit him. i can't !! in my head im shouting  ' please no! help me!!! please!!! i don't want this!!
somehow my body finally reacts and i try to get out of his hold but he holds my head down and takes both of my hands behind my back. i can't do anything!!!! 
"HELP ME!!!!!!!
PLEASE ANYONE!!!!!!!!
I DON'T WANT THIS!!!! 
STOP !!
YOU'RE HURTING ME !!!!!!! 
PLEASE SOMEONE !!! ANYONE!!
" hey wake up" 
"rose come one" 
i wake up breathing heavily, and see Enzo with his hand on my shoulders. shit i must have been really loud, i hope i didn't say anything, nobody knows about what happened and i want to keep it that way, i'm too embarrassed about it. 
" are you okay? here drink this" he hand me a glass of water, and i drink it.
" yeah, i'm okay , sorry"
"why are you apologising? ... tell me who did it"
i nearly spit out the water out of my mouth. oh no he heard.... 
"what?" i barely whisper 
" i said tell me who did it? "
 " who did what?" i try to sound confused.
" oh please don't play dumb , tell me ...tell me who raped you?" 
" nobody..."
he cuts me off 
" oh please don't lie" 
" i can't tell you! okay" i lash out and i feel bad, but i hate talking about this.
" fine , but i'm going to find out one way or another and then i will kill him" his lips form a hard line. the way he said that made shivers going down my spine , somehow i know he's not lying , it's not just 'im going to kill him' like everyone says but the words are truthful, it's almost like they hold a promise behind them. 
i just realized i'm in my tank top and panties, thank god my bottom half covered by the duvet. i start to blush a little, shit why am i blushing ...stop it , i look down so he doesn't see my reaction , he will think i'm crazy as he should. 
"alright , get dressed i'll wait downstairs, were going to the city" 
i just nod, he's so authoritative , it's really hard not to follow whatever he says. he gets up and leaves just like that , leave out a sigh and get up to get ready. 
i take a quick shower , brush my teeth, brushed my hair and sleek it back, i think it looks nice that way with my long hair, its too long at this point , it reaches my butt now, think it's time for a trim soon. since i'm going looking for a job decided to wear my pantsuit  , sounds boring but this one is quite modern. i pair it with some black sandal heels. yes i love black , everything goes to it. i put on some light make up and i'm ready to go. 

                            

                                
                            
                              
                                  
                              
                              
                                
                                  
                                  
                                
                              
                             
                            
                            
                          
                          

i walk down stairs, and there he is , Enzo in all his glory. did he do this on purpose? he's wearing black today as well. hmm what a coincidence. he turns around when i say 'ready' and looks my body up and down.  he clears his throat.
" okay , lets go " 
" this is your car!?" this car is just ... wow , beautiful. Black matted Bugatti.
" yeah , i have a thing for cars"
" me too" 
i smile and i think i saw a little twitch on his lips but it was gone too fast. 
i step in and were off.