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                                                                                               Rose
" Flight, 37 , Rome, will be landing shortly, thank you for flying with us" 
i booked my flight as soon as finished talking to Uncle , Vinsel. I made sure to go down to my workplace this morning to tell them i won't be working there anymore , thankfully my boss knows my situation and was okay with it. i hate when i quit in someone, it's just not my thing. Thankfully there was a flight for the same day , at night time, so i called my uncle to let him know. the flight took over eight hours so i'm landing here in the morning. 
i tried to take a nap, to make sure i have some energy but i know with my nightmares this wouldn't be good on a plane with so many people , so i just closed my eyes and didn't fall asleep, just so i could at least relax.
once we land i try to look for a card with my name on it, he said someone would be here to pick me up from the airport. 
" oh miss Godlova?"
i nod at the man 
" yes, hi" 
i extend my hand out and he seems surprised but shakes it anyway. hmm weird maybe it's not normal to shake hands in Italy. 
" hello , Miss, the car is just out in the front, please follow me."
i nod, and follow him. what i didn't expect is for the car to look like that tho. a limousine?? i always knew my uncle was wealthy but this is a bit much no , nevertheless i step in and we take off. 
" so , what is your name?"
" oh i'm karl  miss"
"oh nice to meet you Karl and it's Rose not miss" i laugh a little.
" oh sorry , sure it's a pleasure to meet you Rose"
i smile , i hate being so formal, but i can understand he's just doing his job. the car ride is in comfortable silence and i take the time to look out the window. Italy is so beautiful i always wanted to come here, on different circumstances of course, but here i am i guess.i want to be excited, i want to explore but i can't , i know why i'm here, and the more i think about it the more the tears just to escape but i hold them back. i'm not going to cry , i just won't. i haven't cried since my dad died, even when my boyfriend cheated on me , even when i held my moms hand as she was barely breathing i still held them in. i hate pity, i hate when people look at me that way , like i'm a weak human being , like i'm about to break.it's like they're saying oh this poor girl just lost her dad and now her mother is sick , but i'm not the one that's going through hell , being poked , losing my hair, and going through treatments, my mother is. she's so strong , everytime we facetime she always smiles, i don't know how she does that,  i want to be strong like her. i want people to look at me and say , she alright. 
" Okay , Mis.. Rose , we have arrived" 
i smile and get out of the car, and I'm in shock. what is this a mansion? it's huge, so beautiful. a little much for my uncle , who needs such a big house , i will never understand that. i go to the back to take my luggage but Karl stops me
" oh no , Rose i'll take them up for you" he smiles 
" um are you sure, i can take them myself"
 " i'm sure you can, but it's my job , plus i want to"
i smile back at him and give in. i follow him inside the mansion. and let me tell you the outside is nothing compare to the inside. it beautiful but crazy too much. i look around , everywhere my eyes land , i'm reminded that i'm poor , literally its just being thrown in my face. i'm okay with being poor , i know i can work my way up, but i don't need to be this rich to be honest i just need enough to pay the bills and get food. 
  " oh my god, is that you Rose, i missed you so much , flower"
he pull me into his arms and i hug him back.
" hi uncle"
" im so happy that you're here finally. i'll take you to your mom and then  i'll show you to your bedroom, an maybe you could rest for awhile , it was along journey"
" yeah that would be nice , thanks" 
he kisses my forehead. he's like a second dad to me. i follow him upstairs , there must be like 10 bedrooms here , it's like apartments , this is not normal. we take a left and he opens the door, i gulp and go in. i see my mother hooked up to machines, a blood bag and she looks so ... different.. 
" mom" 
" oh , Rose , moja princezna" ( my princess)
i run up to her and carefully hug her.
" mom i missed you so much"
" i missed you more" 
she hugs me back , and squeezes' me as hard as she can but i can barely feel it, and here we go again my eyes start to sting. No Rose not in front of her , hold it in. 
" mom how are you doing?" 
i was asking for her to tell me how the treatment are going and she know she has to be honest with me. she sighs.
" princezno, the treatments are not working , it's spreading, but i don't want you to be sad please , i need you to be strong" 
she lifts my chin up 
" mom i'm here now i will do everything that i can, you will be okay"
she smiles
" it's okay , im happy i made it this far , i get to see you , you are so beautiful. you need to promise me something?"
" anything mom"
" i need you to stop worrying about me and start living your life , okay? i need you to promise me that no matter what happens you won't let this take you down , you can't be taking care of me anymore , please i need you to be happy , zi svoj zivot moja Ruza" ( live your life my rose)
" mom "
" don't mom me i can still whoop your butt" 
i laugh " okay mom, but i want to take care of you okay? but i promise that i will have fun okay"
" Dobre princezno , now i have to finish this treatment so how about you go get settled and go take a nap and so will i yeah?" ( okay princess)
i nod, i kiss her forehead and leave my mom have her rest. uncle told me to follow him upstairs, yeah there more floors. 
" okay hun whole right side is yours , you got a a bedroom with a bathroom  , makeup room, and small gym, i know you like to work out"
i just gape at him, is he serious 
" this is too much , all i need is a bed and a bathroom"
" ahh nonsense , my flower deserves to be spoiled sometimes. come on you never let me"
i sight in defeat and nod.
" good now go and take a nap hun , your things are all in your room"
i nod at him " thank you "
" of course oh and one more thing , my boss lives with us as well, the left side and upstairs, the floor up is his , so i just ask you not to go there okay?"
" oh yeah that's no problem , is he okay with me staying here ?"
" oh i told him already no worries, he said you can make yourself feel at home. just so you know he is not very friendly , but he's like that to everyone just don't take it personally"
" oh okay , that's fine, thanks again for everything uncle" 
He smiles. " anything for you flower, okay go now , have some rest" 
i nod and go in to my bedroom. i jump on the bed straight away, and then plop down. i really need some sleep, so i take off my shoes and just fall asleep.