♡ Too busy thinking about you ♡

                                    

                                          
Tuesday, 3rd September


Ena pov:
As the day went on, I found myself zoning out a lot more often and I found it hard to concentrate, especially when I was around Mizuki. Even when it was just the two of us, I often found my brain wandering. It's not like I turn into a complete taciturn, I could still provide small answers and could tell what was going on in the conversation, but I could tell that this still made Mizuki worry sometimes, and they're always asking me if there is something going on. I keep saying that I just need more sleep, and as much as I hate to see them worry, the real reason is something that I just can't tell Mizuki.
I knew that obviously if I was finding it difficult to even have a conversation with Mizuki, there was no way they would ever be interested in me, so I decided to use my class time to look up some ways to stop zoning out so often. Let's see... "Practice mindfulness and meditation"... "minimise distractions"..."Engage in stimulating activities"... 
Ergh... All of these are things I either can't or am already doing... I kept reading until I saw a suggestion that might actually be useful to me. "Have a balanced schedule." Oh... I guess I could maybe use that... Lots of people say I overwork myself sometimes.
As I kept reading, I came to the conclusion that I would just need to work harder on focusing on conversations and having a "balanced schedule". Even though I knew it was important to take breaks, I hated the thought of falling behind on work. But if it could help me get closer with Mizuki, anything was worth it. 
I realised that by looking up "how to not zone out" while I was supposed to be doing work, that also probably counted as a form of zoning out and I made the decision to get back to what I was supposed to be doing.
Wednesday, September 4th
As the next 2 days went by, I made sure to put the strategies into place, and thankfully it was working a little bit. It was kind of painful having to focus solely on actually paying attention to conversations instead of enjoying the moment, but I knew it would help me improve my grades and hopefully get closer to Mizuki. Sigh... To think that I've had to do all this since I was struggling to focus because of my... "admiration" for Mizuki...  Ergh... I sound so stupid. 
 Since today was Wednesday, that meant it was Mizuki and ours before-mentioned "day to eat out".  (Very catchy name, I know.) As it started nearing 5:30, Mizuki and I began putting on our shoes and sweaters before heading to the cafeteria. We had to sign ourselves out so that the staff knew we were gone, and then we were free to leave. 
We walked through the busy city with street lights illuminating the already bright orang-y blue sky, subconsciously turning at every corner as we got closer to our usual eatery. We passed by many restaurants and cafe's which had been decorated with fairy lights and plants, making everything feel so magical. 
At around 5:45 pm, we arrived outside a cafe which had been tucked away and decorated with sparkling lights and floral vegetation climbing across the walls and out of flower boxes. Usually we would eat in the cafe since the atmosphere just felt so enchanting, but it was such a nice day that we decided to get take out to bring to a local park or something.
E- So what do you wanna get?
M- hmmm... Well I definitely want to get a milkshake because the ones here are so good! 
E- Same, and it's perfect weather for it too.
M- Mhm! Anyways, what do you feel like having?
E- Oh... I'm not that hungry, I'll probably just get the same thing as you. 
M- Whaaaat?! Don't make me make the decisions..!
E- Uhm... So do you want to get the same thing as last week..?