Chapter 17

                                    

                                          
My whole body started shaking the moment I felt his disgusting hands on my breasts and nipples. I thought I was going to throw up at the moment, but I won't let anyone humiliate me like this. I'm not a toy, nor a person to satisfy men who don't even know how to satisfy themselves. I took the gun he put on the table and I swung my head hard. I thought my head was going to explode. Maybe I have a little concussion. I turned to the man and just squeezed the trigger. I didn't think for a second. The man immediately fell to the floor dead, and I didn't even think that his friends were standing behind me. I expected them to start shooting at me. I looked at my body when I heard the shots, but nothing happened to me. I covered my breasts with my hands and turned around. I saw Adriano who immediately ran to me. I'm so scared. 
"Alexandra…" I looked into his eyes, but I was too out of touch with reality to deal with him. I felt him putting something over my head. His shirt.
"Adriano... I killed him..." I started crying hysterically and clutching my hair.
"Alexandra, baby.. calm down. He deserved it, everything will be fine. I'm here, no one can hurt you anymore, I'll never leave you alone again." He picked me up in his arms and led me out of the office. I relaxed a little in his arms and rested my head on his shoulder. We left the club.


"Alexandra, I prepared a warm bath for you so you can relax and sleep better."  He came to me and first waited for permission to lift me off the bed, but in my horrible thoughts I just gave in to him. I killed someone with my hands.
"I'll help you undress if you let me?" He asked me, and I have no problem with that. I just want to go to sleep.
"Please.. I don't have the strength." I answered him and he slowly started to pull my shirt over my head until he threw it on the floor. My hands immediately went to my chest, as soon as the scenes from before started coming back in my head. I feel so used and miserable.  Adriano pulled me towards him and connected our bodies. He hugged me tightly, so that I feel as if he is my shield, my armor that no one can destroy.
"I will help you to forget the bad things that happened to you and to remember for the rest of your life my touches on your beautiful body and soft skin, if you allow me." I got out of his embrace and first I looked at him for a few seconds in his eyes, which were showing me something I had never seen in them before. His eyes shine. Is that possible?
"Adriano..." he croaked, looking into my eyes and grabbing the edge of my thong, which he slowly began to pull down. I thought I was going to scream, just because of his touch going down my legs.  He picked me up in his arms and slowly lowered me into the tub. I rested my head on the bath and closed my eyes.
I felt his hands on my shoulders, and they slowly moved down towards my chest and breasts, until he took them in his hands and began to gently massage them, touching my nipples with his thumbs.  With one hand, he started to move down my stomach towards my most sensitive spot. He started working my pussy with his fingers in circular movements. I felt that feeling, that passion and excitement in my whole body. His touch is something that suits me so well. 
"Ohh Adriano..." he continued to caress her gently until he spread my legs wider and slowly pushed one finger into me.  I'm out of everything, the only thing I feel now are his two fingers that work me so well that I'm going to explode with pleasure at any moment. I grabbed the tub from each side and just came. I will dream of him. Him and his movements, which are something perfect. He knows exactly what to do to satisfy me. He kissed my forehead and walked out of the bathroom. I know he left me because he wants me to be alone e for a while.
I wrapped myself in my soft robe and left the bathroom. I went into my closet, took off my robe and put on my soft pajamas.  I hung the robe back in the bathroom and at that moment I heard someone enter my room. At first some fear went through my whole body because I was scared. I didn't call anyone or expect anyone, but when I saw Adriano, my body immediately relaxed.
"Do you want me to sleep with you tonight?" He asked me leaning against the door of my room.
"Of course." I answered him.
We crawled into bed and he immediately pulled me into his arms. My eyes started closing in a second. It's impossible how his presence and touch soothes me.
It's strange and unreal to me, but it suits me and helps.
"Adriano... what will happen to the man I killed?" I didn't want to, but I had to save myself. It was either him or me. I hope I won't dream of him.
"You don't have to worry, he's definitely not alive, and he deserved what he got. Alexandra, you have to understand that this is the mafia and that it's normal here. I understand that this is your first time, but it's the mafia. We have to eliminate the enemies, we can't keep them close to us. You are now part of this mafia and you have to act like it because that's the only way you'll manage to survive in this world." If only it were as easy as saying it. I was not born to kill someone, while he was. This is not me.
"Adriano, I've been wanting to tell you something for a while." Maybe this is not a good time for that at all.
"I'm listening to you." He answered and pulled me closer to him.
"I..." I can't say it.
"You, what?" He asked me, but it sounded like he was teasing me.
"Before I tell you that, I want to ask you something. How is it possible that you take such good care of me, and watch over me, and yet on the other hand you are cold, sometimes rude and arrogant, I can't understand you at all. Why such changes?" I understand that, I don't understand anything.
"I am the most feard person in the world of the mafia. People are afraid of me, that's who I am, it doesn't matter if it's you or someone else. At that moment, I'm like that and I don't react to whether I'm going to hurt someone with my words. You're mine, I told you that the first day I saw you, and then I wanted you as my wife and I stick to that. You are the most important thing to me, and because of you this world I live in is much better. Although I may not show feelings as you would like and I don't say, you know that you are mine forever." I will do everything to make him feel the feelings he talks about but hides.
"It means a lot." I answered him and buried my head in his neck because he smells so wonderful.
"What did you want to tell me before?" I have to say it, because it is impossible to open his feelings and heart without it.
"I've been wanting to tell you for a long time, actually I've been trying to tell you for a while now that I love you.."
"Adriano Lombardi, I love you."