Rudra???
Is he the person who is here to see me...
Is he the one whose marriage proposal it was.....
I don't know why but i feel a relief......i feel like it's okay even if i got married to him
Atleast it is better than getting married to a complete stranger...
I mean he is also not known to me as such but still atleast i know him......
I looked back at him and found him already looking at me with those admiring eyes...
Why is he looking at me like that?
Soon his mother asked me a few things and i answered her questions honestly.....
Why am i feeling nervous?
"I think you both should also go and talk privately" his mother suggested...
"Yes sure" my dadi said...
"Meera take him to the other room" my dadi said to me..
I got up from my seat and went with him to the other room
I am feeling nervous again.......
Comeon meera he is rudra ...remember you talked to him soo much that day.......and the way he use to message you everyday...
But still today is different ..
I was in my thoughts when i heard his voice
"What happened? You look lost......any problem?" He asked in his gentle voice..
"No nothing" i replied with a smile...
"Wanna ask something?" He asked
And i simply shook my head in no.....What will i ask ...why will i ask......when i will ultimately have to accept things as it is .......i can't go against my parents wish ....once they have decided that they like him...
I will have to get married to him anyhow......if he said yes...
Ofcourse that is important..."You....do you have anything to ask?" I asked him in a so called polite tone....
And in reply he looked at me with those same eyes for 2 minutes and then said
"No...i already know everything "
I immediately looked at him on his reply..
What does he mean by 'he already knows everything'
"I mean yours father and grandma told us that day"
He explainedOhkays....
I nodded...
And then there was awkward silence ....
"Ummmm....you want to get married to me?.....i mean you are not forced into it....." He asked
I looked at him
Technically i have been forced but anyways
I shook my head in no
And he smiled ...
"Let's go" he said with a big smile and went back to the room
And there he declared that he wants to get married to me...
I exhaled listening to him
Everyone was happy after hearing him.....
"Very nice, when both are ready then i think we should get the roka done as soon as possible....ummm...what say about the next week?" She suggested..
Noway not next week i have my exams next week and i can't afford to play roka, shadi and all during exam..
I opened my mouth to say something but my grandfather who was sitting quietly there shot me a glare and i stayed quiet...
"Yes, ofcourse we will be more than happy to start the rituals soon....and about roka let me ask the pandit ji for date" my father said and called panditji and asked him about the date
And fortunately the date he suggested is the day just before my exam ...
I exhaled and watched them as they were finalising everything.....
And they finalised that date only and roka ceremony will be a small one at my home only....
After having some more talks and some snacks and all they finally left...
"I have my final exams just a day before that and even the day after that .....how can you do that..." i yelled as soon as they left..
"Listen, it's not a daily thing to get married......it is a special day and don't talk like that.....and about your exam your exam is on next day ...you can go, but we can't risk and wait for too long, they might cancel the wedding, if we would be lenient" My father said
"But i have to revise atleast once the whole syllabus or i won't be able to write the exam" i counterargued
"Listen meera......we are not cancelling it for any reason...there is nothing in this degree and i think you should drop this now....after marriage you won't be able to study ....you will ultimately have to do household chores only , so there is no use of doing this now and moreover your bachelors is done and masters is not so important to do..."
My father said and my eyes got filled with tears ...It means they are saying that i should be a house wife....
"Moreover, you are not studying hard also... i can see you are distracted " he added only to make my heart feel heavier...
I ran to my room not able to control my emotions.
Hey God I can't understand why it's me, always me they said I don't study hard but they can't see that it's a tough time i am going through i am going through depression and ignoring that fact i am trying to focus on my studies I am trying to focus on the life and nobody can see that they want me to get married and I am doing that but I can't do that with me I can't do this to myself i can't be a housewife I respect housewife but this is not what I expect from my life for myself...i want to be independent and do something in my life...
I cried hard...for hours....
And after a heavy crying session ....
I think they are right i ultimately have to do the household chores only so i should drop all the things ....
I have decided to drop my degree and about job ...
I am writing a resignation letter right now to my boss...
I will leave everything and just get married and will become a show piece for everyone there and a sex object of my husband atleast that will put my useless body to use....somebody would get their pleasure from it ....i will work at his house and make his life easy.....atleast that will satisfy my parents...
Thinking this i stood up and went to grab my phone...
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