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..."I don't feel anything anymore,not happiness, not sadness,not anger,I'm emotionless"— Unknown 
Three months later...
Iretiola's POV
We moved,we now live in an estate. Mom knew how much I was hurting and she didn't want me to go through it anymore and so she moved us into a place where I would feel secure and she didn't ask anything of me, except for me to be happy.
I couldn't be happy,there was absolutely nothing to be happy about but I wanted to make her happy and now I pretend to be happy. I have perfected a happy persona for everyone to see,they are happy with how happy they think I am but only I know how I truly feel inside.
Ade had been complaining about headaches for a while and he expects me to help him pass the message onto mummy,but I won't cause now I couldn't care less about what he feels. I may have forgiven him but I can't forget what could have been prevented.
I still feel dirty and used. I still see him, everywhere, I still flinch at the slightest touch so Ade should be able to deal with a little headache and/or body pain.
Today's Valentine's Day and I'm home alone. There's too many love movies showing today. Before I'd have been anticipating those movies but now I just hate the mere thought of love.
I turn off the T.V in anger and I go and get snacks to keep myself busy.
Mum got all my favorites in order to make sure I'm comfortable at home.From chocolates to Cereal to biscuits to sweets to Juices. Of course my siblings have some of it. They take it to school to snack on it.
I grab two chocolate bars and go into my room. No,I don't have a T.V in my room so I just lay on my bed till I decide to scroll through tiktok.
On TikTok, there's so much love shit,I just keep scrolling through till I see a post from an old TikTok crush, Travis aka Toxic baby. It's rumored that his blue eyes are real. How would I know though, I have never seen him in real life before.
He was my crush when I was okay, now I just watch his video and scroll past.I watch more videos before I turn off my phone and try to get some sleep. I sleep better during the day time,I don't know why.
One month later...
I remember last month when I went to register for JAMB. I had happened to get the same registrar that helped me the year before and when he saw that I had picked the same course I hesitantly picked last year, he asked 
"Are you sure about this" and I emotionlessly stared at the computer and said "Yes,thank you" before I left.
I would be studying Economics cause my dreams are stupid and Unrealistic.
When my siblings get back from school, Ade comes and tells me to call mummy cause he has a really bad headache and I wave him off saying "Mummy's working,I can't disturb her just because you have a headache,just go and take paracetamol" 
"But I'm not feeling fine, I even vomited in school today" he retorted "See, don't disturb me,just go and take paracetamol for now, and we'll tell her about your headache when she gets back from work" I tell him and he goes away with disappointment all over his face.
I'm not evil so I dial Mummy's number after he goes and while it's ringing I hear a bang and Ayo runs up to my room just when mummy picks up and he says "Brother Ade just fainted" to both mine and mum's hearing and mum starts panicking while I make my way over to him holding my phone against my ear.
"What happened to him? What happened to Ade?? Answer me now,Ireti......." Mum's voice cracks through the phone as she makes her way to her car on the other end of the phonecall "He told me he had a headache and now he has fainted....."i tell her