"I warned you of the same thing." I reply, walking towards the bench. Even after everything I go through. Kai's the one thing that I just can't stay done with. I'll never know why.
"What are you doing?" He questions, lifting his head.
"Keeping you company." I answer, climbing onto the bench and sitting down next to him. "Even when it's raining, it's a good fucking view." I chuckle lightly, staring out.
"What do you want with me?" He asks, a slight amount of hesitation in his voice.
"You never listen to me." I tell him, looking at him for a second.
"All I ever do is listen to you." Kai responds, his hesitation being replaced by slight anger.
"Woah, don't get mad." I wave my hands. "I mea-" I go to explain, not expecting Kai to cut me off.
"All I ever did was listen to you. You said you wanted space and I gave it to you. Now you come here and try to act like we're friends. As if you didn't say we were a mistake. To me, you came first but to you, I came second. I wasn't your full focus. You knew I was bit and you didn't bother to tell me that you were Spider-Woman. I didn't tell anyone because I didn't know. But you knew. We kissed once and you ran. Now you come here. What do you want with me?" He interrupts, the slight annoyance in his tone increasing more and more.
"Again, for you to have company." I repeat.
"No, that's not the reason." He shakes his head.
"What?" I ask, my eyebrows scrunching in confusion.
"Every time we talk it's either we argue or we talk as mutuals. I've given you every part of me. I've told you about things that I've never told anyone else. Your knife is in my back. You broke my feelings when you said I was a mistake. One day you're cold to me and the next you aren't." He says.
I could hear a quiver in his voice with the words he spoke. In this moment I had truly realised how much I fucked up. I fucked up our happiness all because I got scared...
"I... I don't know." I respond, looking down at my lap.
Kai's body moves in my peripheral, his legs standing up as he gets off of the bench. "Where are you going?" I ask, looking up at him.
"Leaving. If you don't know then I don't want to talk to you." He answers, beginning to walk away.
"I come here to keep you company and now you're just going to leave?" I ask, frustration slowly beginning to build up.
"Yeah." Is all Kai says, his body stopping for a split second before it resumes.
His footsteps fill the air as my brain overlaps with thoughts. He's leaving? Just like that? I didn't even get to say anything and he's leaving. Maybe I deserve it. I did hurt him. More than anyone else could've, more than his ex probably did... Why did I agree to Jade's idea? I shouldn't have. I knew how this was going to play out, I don't know why I expected anything different. I regret saying what I said to him. I fucked up. I regret not telling him that I was Spider-Woman. Every time we talk anger laces our words. Venom spits from our mouths even if it's not our intention. Kai's put me before everything and I've thrown that in the trash just because I didn't want to confess my feelings that I clearly have for him.
I regret not putting him first. I always put myself and my identity as Spider-Woman first. But out of everything I regret. I regret losing him.
"Kai!" My body shouts as it shoots off of the bench. Kai's footsteps stop, my body turning towards him. "Just, wait." I tell him, walking up to him.
"What?" He questions, his body turned away from me.
"Just listen." I breathe out, thinking over my words for a second. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for hurting you. For leading you on. For constantly switching between cold and caring. For saying, we were a mistake. Before I met you, I didn't smile. You showed me happiness that I've never felt. I'm sorry for not telling you I'm Spider-Woman, I never put you before me. I'm sorry, Kai." I apologise, my voice wavering over time.