Jeonghan's pov
(Italics are flashbacks)
"Could you be my first time?" It amazes me that's all it took for me to go completely insane. That look he gave me of lust hidden by his innocence as he looked straight into my eyes, seeming almost desperate.
His beautiful big doe eyes, his moist lips, husky but whiney voice. He's perfect, he's all I ever want. He's gorgeous, when I first laid my eyes on him I knew I was going to make him mine.
It's been almost three years since we started dating. We met during our freshman year. It was the first week of school and we happened to have all classes together. I couldn't take my eyes off of him, his sharp yet soft features, his dimples that I would see nonstop since he smiled so much. I would catch myself staring but I couldn't help it.
I never hid my feelings for him. I made it quite obvious. There was nothing for me to lose anyways and he eventually found out I liked him. He was so shy, I remember when I first confessed my feelings to him and his face started to get red. He was trying not to smile even though it was apparent. Of course we went out after that.
We did so much together, we were always by each other's side and some people found us annoying but I know I didn't care. He's my lover, why can't we be affectionate? So stupid.
Throughout the years our bond grew more and more special and nobody could take that away from us. We are in love.
My hands made my way to his waist, squeezing them slightly. I felt him shiver from my touch, his hands traveling to my shoulders. Although we didn't have a major height difference he felt so small in my arms. Her fit perfectly, I could praise him all day.
Before getting too carried away I paused. Right. "Are you sure you want this? I'll be patient whenever you're ready." I wanted it so badly but I didn't know if he really wanted it. Maybe he's just doing this because of what happened the other day. Right..
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"Jeonghan, I have a question.." he softly said, avoiding all eye contact with me as he started fidgeting with his fingers.
"Yeah what is it?"
"Is it bad that we haven't..ever had sex?" it was so sudden, we have never really spoken on the topic although I have implied it we never went along with it.
"What? Of course not, what's got you thinking this?" he looked down, almost seeming relieved but also embarrassed with my response.
"Well I was hanging out with Hongjoong the other day and he brought up the question and I was stunned I guess? I don't know, he said something about us dating for a while and expected us to do all of that"
"Oh? Is it really that odd? You should know, I'll be more than happy to do anything with you okay? No matter how long it takes us, as long as you're happy I'm content."
"I just...i just don't want you to wait so long, it's been too long way to-"
"Cheol, you're overthinking again, I won't let you go. I don't care how long I have to wait as long as I love you and you love me I'll be fine."
"Okay.." he muttered before giving me a tight hug burying his face on my neck.
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"Of course I do, are you not going to let me? Don't waste my time Jeonghan, I really want this." I couldn't hold back any longer. At that exact moment in time I knew we were meant to be and I know he knew it too. When our lips collided, our bodies pushed together with warmth, aggressive but sweet kisses, hands rummaging against each other. It's no lie we are meant to be together, and nobody can deny it.
