Chapter 33

                                    

                                          
(Tori's POV)
I've been awake the entire night trying to think of things to say to Eddie, ways to apologise to him about all of this mess. Do I try and think up some big apology speech and try and justify myself? 
While it would be nice to have a speech prepared, it would probably be better to speak from the heart and try and show him how sorry I truly am. 
I feel so awful. I should have trusted him from the beginning. He tried to tell me those photos were fake, but I didn't believe him. Why didn't I believe him? 
He now thinks that I don't trust him anymore. I was so quick to judge him, to give up on him. Why?? 
I was so cruel to him when he called me to ask where I'd gone. The fact that I tried to make him feel like shit, saying that I had fucked Moose and should have fucked Lucien in New York...
I pray that I can make things right. 
And then there's Cat, as well. Not only have I potentially lost my fiance, but also one of my closest friends. I mean, how could I really think that someone so sweet, so pure of heart such as Cat, could do something like that to me? 
She was so upset when I was screaming at her. That face she makes when she's about to cry, those puppy dog eyes. I can't stop picturing it and feeling horrible for treating her, both of them that way. 
As I contemplate my thoughts in bed, a sudden knock at the bedroom door breaks my train of thought. 
I look to the door as Andre lets himself into the room, a plate of toast and waffles and some coffee in his hands. 
"Morning chica. Thought you could do with some food and something to help wake you up a bit" he says as he hands me the breakfast and drink. 
"Thanks Andre. I appreciate that" I say, failing to match his positive attitude. 
I pick up a slightly burnt slice of toast and a very crispy waffle and raise an eyebrow at my friend, a small smirk growing on my face. 
"Hey, I'm not a good cook alright! But I thought I'd make an effort for ya" he tells me. 
I chuckle lightly and put down the food. 
"Thanks" I say. 
"Ah c'mon Tori. Try and cheer up. You and Eddie will have your talk today and things will be back to normal for you in no time" he says as he sits down on the edge of the bed. 
"You don't know that Andre. He's hurting, all because I wouldn't believe him and couldn't trust him. I don't know if things will be the same" I say to him. 
"All you can do is talk to him and for the two of you to try and hash things out as best you can. Talk to each other calmly and let each other explain how you're both feeling and both your sides of the story" Andre advices. 
"Yeah, I'll try my best anyway, whether he'll want to listen to me or not. But I have to talk to Cat as well today and apologise to her" I say guiltily. 
"Maybe it's best to talk to her first. I feel like maybe that conversation will go a little quicker than yours and Eddie's and she'll probably be much more understanding and forgiving" Andre says, before widening his eyes and stuttering his next words. 
"N-not that Eddie won't be understanding... or-or forgiving but... you know what I mean" he says. 
"Yeah, I know Andre. Thanks" I say, giving a half-hearted smile. 
"I'll let you eat and get yourself ready" he says, giving me a one armed hug before leaving the room. 
I'm so grateful that he let me use his guest bedroom in his house last night. I really don't think it would have been a great idea for Eddie and I to spend the night in the same place while all of the drama from the last couple of days was still fresh. 
Once I finish my breakfast, I groggily climb out of bed and head to get a shower. Wanting nothing more than to just curl up and sit in a ball at the bottom of the shower while contemplating the events of the last couple of days, berating myself for how I acted, I grudgingly decide against that idea, and instead go for a quick shower, not wanting to waste any time today.