december 8 2023 (friday)

                                    

                                          

reallyw eird but this morning i got up and went to the bathroom and i think i hallucinated some of it because in the mirror my hair was long

anyway i hallucinate a moderate amount
i hallucinate people saying my name and the clock ringing and etc
the kids in facs afctually stupid this girl was like "do you think george washington was real?" LIKE GIRL OFC HE'S FUCKING REAL, WHY ELSE WOULD HE BE ON OUR MONEY

i hate rock time so much
its so stupid
at least today was rams read
the whole rock time concept makes me so mad
it just wastes my time and brain space 
i aint got the time for this shit
my friends' rock time teachers sometimes skip lessons if they're stupid but my teacher always makes us do allll the lessons and they're so stupid
ughh
the counselors are literally useless
i schedule meetups for rocktime and the requests never get accepted or even cancelled
i could literally do better venting to the PE teacher
i told my history teacher about the cheese sticks and he said "wHAt?" and power walked to where the cheese sticks were and threw them out
i mean like who knows how long they've been there, Frenemy 2 found them last class but no one knows (except for Freeloader 2 and her friend) how long they've been there
science makes me want to sleep or just jump out the window istfg
i also found one of my friend's vents from last year and im concerned
ik she won't want me to talk abt it but idk how to show caring
because i suck at this friend thing im sorry
covid screwed over my social skills
she's so nice and always cares for everyone
she doesn't even say anything when this one girl made fun of her and only complained after
she makes freinds with so many annoying people and never snaps at them
like i could never
i snapped at 2 of my friends at the end of last school year even though i was mostly at fault and they still forgave me
i get mad really easily

i wish my mom would just leave me alone for a day
like she cares abt me and i appreciate it but all i want is to sit in front of the computer all day
i dont like history as a subject
we had to do this doc and it annoys me
i hate writing nonfiction
it wanted us to infer how immigrants lived based on 3 sources but like what am i supposed to do with them
idk how having no lighting was bad back then
history, science, and english make my head hurt
i wasnt paying attention for like 5 mins yesterday and my math teacher somehow materialized 26 out of nowhere