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«"i am not afraid of falling in love I am afraid of being the only one to fall in love"»

                            

                                
                            
                              
                                  
                              
                              
                                
                                  
                                  
                                
                              
                             
                            
                            
                          
                          
T A N I S H K A 'S P O V :
"Yes?" I said smiling, I am actually happy today.
He took a deep breath before saying"I am gonna come straight to the point. We are a lovely couple for the world but in reality we are nothing I can never take you as my wife" he said the most heartbreaking thing. "I didn't wanted to get married but I did for my family's happiness. I can't take you as my wife or anything so it will be better if you will mind your business and expect nothing from me" he says with a serious expression.
I felt like my knees were going weak, my eyes blurred with tears i want to cry so hard right now. That's not how I wished my first night to be that too with the someone I love? No please tell me this is a whole nightmare no no no.
"And also..." he spoke again "i don't want you to do anything that can affect Royal's reputation or my reputation keep that in mind."
"You are understanding what I am saying?" He said making me come to the real world. I nodded.
"Use your words in front of me"
"S-ure" my words fumbled as i felt a lump in my throat.
"Go and change now." i rushed inside the bathroom before he could say anything more.
Why? Why me? Why always me god???
I held the sink tightly, my skin going pale as i felt numb.
Don't tell me I am going to have a panic attack again no god please no... I want my medicine.
Calm down Tanishka take a deep breath.
Inhale.
Exhale.
Inhale.
Exhale.
I tried doing the breathing exercise but it's not working at all...i want my panic attack pills.
I peeked out of the room to see if he is in the room and thank god he isn't here I started finding the pills from my bag "Please please please c'mon where are you??"
Found it.
I took them with my shaky hands as a few droplets of water fell on my clothes but i didn't care about it at all. After some moments now I am relaxing a bit.
After months I took these pills and I feel so weak now plus this heavy lehenga is making it worse...i should change now.
I changed my lehenga into some comfy clothes yet he hasn't come... I am here deciding where should I sleep? On the bed or on the sofa?