part 9

                                    

                                          
Yn is running...and stop to bridge and she standing on the bridge wall and she sadly smile to herself and said 
Wow what a life you god give me.. Why the hell ..you created me god why.. 
She look to sky 
Yn "Why everyone hate me ",Did I commit a sin in my previous life? 
(Sadly chuckles) i think god also hate.. I think I should take to step suicide but i am afraid.. Well does someone will love me, care about me? 
Answer is "NO " ( she answered herself )
Yn : okay so bye cruel world.. Thank you for depression thanks for anxiety ..( she said and wipe her tears harshly) 
Yn : 10!
She counting 
Yn : 9!
She counting 
Yn :8!
Yn:7!!
Yn:6,5,4,3,2!!
Yn : 1!!
She closed her eyes and she ready to jump but someone dragged her and huge her tightly 
Yn slowly open her eyes when she didn't feel any hurt 
The person who saved her.. The person loosing the grip of her and they both stand 
Yn didn't the person face because she looking the ground 
Yn : who are you ? ( she question to the person) 
???: first you tell me what you are going to do (he said in serous face)
When she heard the familiar voice she emidetely look to the person and wide her eyes and said
Yn : why you saved me again ( she said in her low voice). 
???: because I'm your friend 
Yn : let see you tomorrow in the school bye soekjin ( she said and run to her home quickly) 
He want said to her something but she gone.. He followed her and when he see that yn goes to her room.. He come to his drom 
Jk : hyung what's in your hand.. Is it your diary 
Jin nodded his head 
Jin : what you're doing here go to your room if you didn't want to hit by me ( he yell to him) 
Jungkook flinch and run to his room 
Jin went to his room and sit in the bed and opened the yn dairy 
And he open the first page which written in the dark black pen that My HORRIBLE MEMORIES NO ONE KNOW 
Pov jin 
I was shocked to see the first page i turn the next page and read 
End pov jin 
Flash back 
When she was 7 years old 
Mrspark : yn ..here meet your uncle and your dad sister son 
Yn smile to them innocently and said 
Yn : hello nice to meet you 
They both said : nice to meet you too 
[her uncle is 18 years old and her dad sister son is 15 years old and yn is 7 years old ]
Dad sister son : yn let's go with us.. We have new game which you didn't know yet you wanna go 
Yn innocently nodded her head 
She goes with both them 
They both close the door but yn said to them confusedly why they close the door 
Yn : why would you close the door we are to play game 
They both smirk 
Uncle : it's Secret game which no one know about this. That's why we close the door but promise when we played the game you didn't tell to your parents 
He smirk and said to her 
Yn nodded her head in innocently 
Yn : why are you removing your clothes ( asked innocently to them) 
They both smirk and push her and hardly removed her clothes and started to doing the disgusting things she is crying and said to them to stop but they bastard did not stop after they satisfying they both stop and they said 
Wear your clothes and don't dared to open your mouth if you didn't want to play this game again.. Got it 
They both went out when they said to her 
Yn crying what is happened to her 
End flash back
When he read this he crying and angry and said 
Jin : how they bastard they even didn't think about that she... She is 7 years old innocent child ( he murmured )
.
He again starded to read 
Flash back 
Yn is writing her dairy 
Yn : i know all you wonder about what next happened.. I didn't going to write this. You know what it's hard to remember this memory ..it's not the end it's also happened with me again in the school.. You thinking that why would you don't tell your parents well the reason is my parents beating me physically and mentally they didn't care about me they only care about grades...after all this happened i got many phopia well.. Fear of society, fear of boys 
When boys coming closer to me i get panic attack but no one knows about this because i didn't feel safe i didn't trust to anyone nor girls nor boys.. That's why i always take knife 
I'm not gonna write the Dairy again.. But i have one question why this all happened with me why not other people happen what happened with me 
I'm happy person talkative and cheer full but they all turne me unhappy, always crying for dead always wishing to i didn't wake up next morning.. 
You all wondering why would i didn't take suicide well i take the step when i were 8 years old but i hoping that my future life well light up... Well i still hoping 
But if i dead i well feel very happy 
My all last wish is now dead i want to dead i didn't wanna alive 
End the flash back 
This is last page of the dairy jin close the dairy and hide into his drawer 
Jin lie down on the bed and close the eyes 
Pov jin 
That is why yn shivering and shaking when she came close to boys that is why when we asked her the question to be friends she hesitated 
I got the answer why yn make distance when hoseok is coming closer 
Is it his brother know about this? 
I think he knows that's why he know where the yn dairy 
I help her to the cheer full and happy person again
End Pov jin 
He falling into sleep 
To be continue ....