~I'm sorry it has to end this way~
I know i've told you mutiple times that death is a painful, horrible thing that nobody expects but these past few days it has been really real.
I've been loosing my vision, smell and taste even when i'm awake. I know i'm going to die in the next few hours even if nobody will admit it, i'm ready for it i want to be out of this pain
My skin is pain, my lips are cracked, my eyes are blood shot. The common symptoms of death, My hair is also thinning and my voice is croaky, but yet again nobody will admit that my life is coming to an end
I'm sick of it, i can't eat without throwing everything back up. I can't remember the last time i actually had food in my body since all i have been doing is crying and sleeping, It hurts watching my family have to watch me go through this
My worthless horrible life
Ever since i was born, i knew it would be shit even if the last 3 years of my life were relatives normal despite the mutiple attempts, mutiple diagnosis and mutiple breakups
Yeah maybe i was just doomed for a shit life thanks to my peice of shit father and my stupid mother who gave me this disease in the first place
I am only thankful for my oldest brother na his boyfriend for giving me the best life ever, for fiona for taking me in as her own and Carl for loving me throughout my whole illness
I'm glad my life is ending even if it is ending in such a horrible way, and the fact i am in so much pain all of the time
Everyone around me looks guilty, i don't know why they won't just admit it. I am dying, Rory Gallagher will not survive through the night despite there constant wishes that i will
"Please just make it stop, let me die." I sobbed already feeling breathless just talking, why was it all getting so exhausting
My body is slowly shutting down
"Your going to be okay." Mickey replied even though it was just to make himself feel better, he really didn't want to loose his bestfriend
The quicker he accepts it the more likely he will be able to come to terms with it once i finally go
I gasped one long breathe, every breathe becoming harder to take in. It felt like somebody was suffocating me
The machine started to beep rapidly, meaning my heart rate was dropping. My heart felt like it was exploding out my of chest, fuck this hurts to much
I tried to take in as much air as i could but it became impossible, i was slowly turning blue and weak
Mickey had ran to get a nurse whilst Ian help my hand.
"I'm so sorry Aurora, I love you." He sobbed into my chest as i closed my eyes trying to get rid of the pain i was going through
That is when it had finally happened at 7:07AM, with Ian holding my hand tight just like it had always been
I drifted off into a deep sleep that will last a life time
Why? Because i was finally out of pain and suffering
The suffering that my stupid illness made me feel
The pain that ending my own life has caused me
I was finally dead, after 17 years of living on this earth
I can't remember 10 of them because of trauma caused by my dad, it was a surprise i even lived 17 years with the amount of beatings i took
I know everyone will hate to see me end that way but like i said from the beginning, we both die in the end
WE meaning me and my worthless father
"She's gone Mickey." Ian held his boyfriend "She's gone."
"No No No." He sobbed, his legs giving way not being able to support himself anymore
"Im so sorry baby." Ian cried as he joined Mickey on the floor as the both held eachother, whilst the doctors disposed my lifeless body
Rory Gallagher Was Dead
Hey it's me, i'm very very sorry for how i ended this it was such a shit ending, but this is me a whole year later and i just want to say this book was awful in my opinion, the plot was awful and everything. But you lot enjoyed it, and im sorry if you got bored half way through but i wrote this when i was like mega depressed after my nan passed
Anyways i wanna write another Carl fan fic but i dont know what to base it on, like this one is the struggles of bipolar etc
Anyways thank you so so much for 35k reads and all your lovely comments. I deleted watpadd for a while and was shocked to see all the support.
PS sorry if you think this is an update xxxxx
I love you all
Grealishhh x
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