May- July 2022 • Harry

                                    

                                          
*** A/N: I feel it necessary to give a warning. In this chapter, Olivia (Wilde) will be a 'main character'. Harry has to process what being with her has made him figure out about himself and what he wants in a relationship moving forward.
Regardless of how you felt about them in real life, or how their relationship actually played out, I am simply using her as a character to advance the storyline. 
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MAY 2022
As It Was came out a month ago and it blew up like I knew it would. I fought hard for it to be the first single, but not as hard as I had fought for Kiwi. Now that I am three albums in, they listen to me a little more than they did with that first one. I've proven that I make good decisions when it comes to what my fans would like to hear. I think I can do that because I make what I love and so far they love what I love. 
Everyone sent messages in those first days to tell me how much they loved the song, and the accompanying music video. Everyone, that is, except for Nola. I know we haven't had any contact, but I'm guessing she has seen the video, and if she has there is no way she didn't catch that I wore the red boxers. Her favorite red boxers. Not only that, but I had artwork done that looked very much like some of her favorite modern artists. There is no way that she could see those things and not know that I was sending a message to her, but even if she hasn't seen the video, she has to have heard the song. 
It's all about her. It's about allowing myself to see my future with her; imagining us growing old together in the house that we shared when we first met. It's about how everything changed during the pandemic, including my idea of what love is. The public has these ideas about our relationship and they couldn't be farther from the truth (other than that they have finally figured out I am not Conrad's father, seeing as I am dating someone new and not involved in his life). Olivia thinks the song has to do with meeting her after Nola and I am going to let her think that, but it is all about how meeting Nola changed everything for me. Forever.
Today, I announce my One Night Only concerts in New York and London, then tomorrow I announce the North American Residencies tour. Between promotional interviews and appearances, my calendar has filled up again in a way that I am not sure that I like, but I think that is because I'm not sure that I see a future with the person I am currently calling my girlfriend and spending my days with.
Olivia and I have been together for a little over a year now, and I am starting to question if we are staying together because it is comfortable and convenient, or because this is a long-term thing. Really, it's her questioning if this is a long-term thing, because I have told her from the beginning that we are not going to make any future based decisions until she has lived through me touring, because that is where my relationships usually fall apart. Last year, she flew all over the country to support me, but the legs of tour that take her outside of the U.S. are going to be the more challenging because she is a mother first, and I wouldn't want her to be anything to me before her children.
Her kids are another challenge. Jason was originally completely against me being around Daisy and Otis until we had been together long enough to justify them being involved. Honestly, I respected him for that. It was part of the reason that I eventually decided to become her boyfriend, because it was inappropriate to be her 'special friend' once we had been together six months and her kids knew that I was in their mom's life. I have approached getting to know them completely the opposite of how I got to know Nola's girls, but that was a completely different situation. 
I guess what I am saying is that time will tell. I'm not all in and I can't tell if that is because she isn't the right person, or the timing just hasn't been right?