Chapter 36. You Need To Calm Down (Part 1)

                                    

                                          
~~~~~Heavy Chapter Warning~~~~~
TAYLOR'S POV
Yes, I know it was probably a bad idea to talk to her about her problem over the phone, but I didn't want another second to go by if I could help her. Trust me, in hindsight, if I could've approached her in a better way about it, I would have. In fact, Selena told me that I should wait for her to come back to talk to her about it, but I might've gotten ahead of myself. I just really didn't expect her to act like that... to recoil from me the way she did. I thought we worked past that, past her pushing me away and opening up to me, but I can't help but feel like we're right back where we started.
I mean, what was I supposed to do? Let her wither away until she came back? That would've been days! I understand that this is a conversation you have with someone face-to-face, but I just need her to be okay, especially as soon as possible. I don't want another second to go by where she's not okay especially if I can do something about it.
She's been back for a little over a week, but it's almost like she's avoiding me. We haven't been able to sit down and talk about everything because she's been so busy with work. I know her job can be demanding, but I'm starting to think she's dodging me on purpose. She already gets up really early in the mornings, so I don't get to see her then, but she's been getting back home later at night. Tomorrow is her first off day since she's been back and I really don't know what it's gonna look like. I want her to see a specialist or at least talk to someone about it. Anyone, really. But it's impossible to ask that of her if she won't even talk to me about anything.
Well, it's not like she's not talking to me, because she is. But I can tell she's definitely upset with me, though. Our conversations aren't how they usually are. She's short with her answers and she's being fairly quiet when she is around me. I just wish things could go back to the way they were. Or more specifically, the way we were. Not with herself.
Tonight, I planned for Gigi and Selena to have a movie night with us because I think they might be able to help in ways that I can't. I just hope that y/n is open to it. I mentioned them coming over, but I don't know if everything I'm saying is going in one ear and out the other.
"So we're having an intervention?" Gigi asks, getting comfy with the bowl of popcorn on the couch.
"No. Not an intervention. Don't even mention it unless she brings it up" Selena says, eyeballing her. 
"Just ease her into the conversation. Don't make her feel ambushed." Selena says, looking back at me.
Ease into it. Got it. I can do that.
"What if she pushes me away? She shut me down completely, Selena. I can't do that again. I just want to help her." I say, starting to get a little worried.
Maybe I overestimated how simple this is supposed to be? When I tried, it certainly wasn't easy.
"If she does, we're right here to be the buffer. We're not gonna leave until things are okay between you two." Selena reassures me. 
"When is she supposed to be back?" Gigi asks, eating some popcorn.
"Soon. She said she'd be back by 8." I answer.
"Has she moved in yet?" She asks.
"Not completely. She still has some things at her loft" I respond.
"Did she move her record player yet?" Selena asks me.
"Not yet," I say, my voice sounding a little bit sorrowful.
"She will" She comforts me.
"I know" I smile softly at her.