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Jasper
,,I told you to leave me alone." I shout at the ass face in front of me.
,,Just wondering...when were you planning to tell her what you did 6 years ago?" His grin is pure evil. It still haunts me in my dreams.
,,Shut up, Liam." I push him away from me. He's a few inches shorter than me but his build is just like mine. 
,,Stop denying it!" He roars back.
,,You are the one that did it, not me!" I'm so close to killing him.
He came to me again this morning when I was leaving to meet Maeve. She'll probably hate me for being late but not as much as when she finds out what we did.
,,Why did you come here, Liam?" 
,,I need something from you." He states.
,,Well too bad because I won't give you shit!"
,,Are you sure about that? If you don't do exactly what I tell you, I will tell her. Everything." 
That shuts me up.
,,What do you want?" I ask slowly and tortured.
,,I need help selling these. And you'll do it as long as I say." He throws a bag of pills in my hand. ,,I'll text you the infos. Have fun on your date. Oh, and Jasper, enjoy it while it lasts." He winks at me and then turns around to walk away.
That's when I realize what just happened.
Fuck. I'm in so much trouble.
,,You're late." Maeve states as I enter the coffee shop. 
Shit, she's is absolutely stunning. I can't believe she's my girlfriend. Her auburn hair is curled perfectly over her shoulders and she's wearing a beautiful red knitted dress, but the look in her eyes tells me she's disappointed.
,,I'm sorry I got holden up." I still can't comprehend what just happened. This is a big mess.
,,I almost thought you stod me up." Maeve looks down avoiding eye contact. Why the hell would she think that?
,,Sunny, why would I ever do that? I'm the luckiest man alive to be able to be with you. It's a privilege to even breath the same air as you." I let out a laugh because it's just so stupid.
,,Okay, now you're exaggerating." She tries to sound annoyed but I can see her cheeks flush. 
,,How are you? And uh...Avery?" I ask cautiously, because I know she's mad that I went partying with Theo last night. And Noah. But believe me if I had a say in this he would have never stepped a foot in that bar. Unluckily, he's Jason's best bud.
,,I'm good actually and she's alright I guess. Definitely better than a few days ago, but not quite good enough to be out partying." She hints to the fact that Theo was partying.
,,Well, I don't know if it makes it any better but he didn't look like he had a great time. The whole time he was alone in some corner while drinking himself to death." 
,,Really? But why is he taking it so bad when he said he didn't love her anymore?" She immediately goes in detective mode.
,,That doesn't mean it's true. From my experience, a lot of guys lie about why they're breaking up with a girl. It's just a theory though, so don't take my word on it." 
,,I guess we'll never know." She sighs.
,,You look beautiful." I tell her, changing the topic.
,,Thank you." She gives me an embarrassed smile in return. This girl really can't take compliments.
,,So, what-" Suddelny my phone vibrates in my pocket and I pause to see who it is. 
The number is unknown and all the messages says are some coordinates and a time. I know who this is from.
,,Are you alright?" Maeve asks me concerned.
,,Yeah, it's just that uhm... my dad needs me for something. I need to go I'm really sorry." I lie but I can tell she's not buying it.
This girl knows me way to well and that's whats going to be the end of me.
,,Are you happy now? How much longer do I have to do this?" I shout at Liam.
It's been two weeks now and I still have to sell drugs for him. He just wont leave me the fuck alone.
Meave has been with Avery most of the time so she hopefully hasn't noticed that I'm acting different.
I try to stay away from her as much as possible. 
I'm lying straight to her face.
,,As long as I want to. You know I could just walk over to her house and tell her everything, Jasper. I own you now!" He enjoys this. He always enjoyed seeing people hurt. Liam is a fucking psychopath and had I realized that sooner then maybe my mother wouldn't be dead now.
You could have stopped him.
You should have told the police the truth.
Two people are dead because of you.
The last thought spreads through my veins like a wildfire. Burning all of me from the inside. Killing me slowly but painful. 
You deserve the pain.
Maeve
,,Something is off about him. He has been acting really strange, Ave." I rent to my best friend.
,,Mae, I still think you should talk to him. Communication is so important." She tells me again. I think a part of me is scared what his answer might be. There's something going on and I need to know what.
,,You're right. I'm gonna call him now." I announce and then dial his number. 
I press my phone to my ear waiting for him to answer but he doesn't. So I call a second time. He's still not picking up. 
When I eventually give up and drop my phone next to me I hear it ringing. I don't waste a single second to pick up.
,,Maeve, is everything okay?" His voice feels a little distant like he is doing something.
,,I'm fine. I just wanted to talk to you. I mean, we haven't really talked much for two weeks now." 
,,I'm sorry Maeve but I don't have time now. We'll talk later, okay?" I hesistate to long, so he just hangs up. I don't have time now. He says that everyday.
And I'm not stupid. When he says later that actually means never. 
,,He's such a dick." Avery mumble but loud enough for me to hear.
,,I don't know what I did wrong, Ave. Did he just lose interest? Or did he never really like me? What did I do wrong for him to be like this now?" I can feel the tears sting in my eye.
,,Maeve, none of this is your fault. Maybe he is just going through a tough time. Do you remember when he started acting like this?" 
,,I don't know...maybe since I saw him talking to this guy. Liam, I think was his name." I try to remember everything he said then but it's kind of blurry now.
,,You know what, I'll just go to his house. He can't keep ignoring me." I stand up ready to leave.
Ave claps her hands in excitement.
,,Yess, you go girl." 
,,Hey." I say as his dad opens the door. With a confused look he gives me a slow ,,Hello." back.
,,Is Jasper here?" I ask enthusiastically, hoping that I can finally talk to him so I won't have to worry anymore.
,,No. You just missed him." He tells me.
I sigh out of disappointment. If I just hadn't used the fucking elevator...
,,But if you hurry I'm sure you'd be able to catch up with him." He continues and that gives me hope.
So I thank him and run down the stairs as fast as I can.
When I open the door I can see his dark shadow from the distance.
,,Jas." I shout and I expected for him not hear me but he turns around immeadiatly.
I can't see his face but his his body tells me he's shocked to see me. 
,,Maeve? What are you doing here?" He shouts back and I kind of miss him calling me Sunny.
Why doesn't he anymore?
I felt so bold coming here and now that I have to face him and tell him what's bothering my I can't hold back the tears. I just break.
,,Can we just please talk, Jas? Please? I can't take it anymore!" I plead and with him only being a feet away from me now I can see the pain in his eyes.
,,Maeve, everything's fine. I'm just really busy right now. I promise you, we will talk later, okay? I just have to meet someone now." He can't even look me in the eye.
My lip tremples as I try to get the words out.
,,A- A girl?" I ask trying not to break into a million pieces in front of him.
Finally his eyes connect with mine and his expression looks haunted. If he is in as much pain as me then why doesn't he put a stop to it? I don't get it.
,,Sunny, please. It's not a girl. You don't have to worry about something like that. Just please wait in my room and I'll be there in half an hour, I promise." 
I want to believe him so bad but I don't know what to think right now so I just look at my shoes. 
I didn't realize until now that I am shivering. It's so fucking cold. 
I hear his footsteps coming closer and then his warm hand around my arm, pulling me closer to him.
,,Are you cold?" He asks me.
,,Y-yes." I whisper into his chest.
Then suddelny he takes a step back and takes off his jacket. He looks so worried about me.
Maybe there is still hope for us after all.
,,Here. Wear this." He puts the jacket on me and than hugs me again. Tight. 
,,Thank you." I say quietly.
,,Will you wait for me?" He asks.
I think about it for a second but I don't want to give up on us yet. So I nodd.
,,Thank you." His voice is filled with relieve.
Jasper presses a quick kiss on my forehead and then turns around without another glance in my detection.
I look at him as he walks away. His body grows smaller with distance until he's just a little black spot.
That's when I decide to head back to his apartment.
His jacket is very big on me but I still feel cold so I put my hands in the pockets. 
I would have never expected what I would find in there.