Chapter Forty-Seven

                                    

                                          
Freddie's (POV) 
We wasted no time heading back to New York we were in the sky and heading back home within a few hours. Alissandra wanted to be as far away from that place as possible so we wasted no time making it happen. The flight back was set in complete silence mainly which wasn't surprising with what she had gone through. 
We've been for a couple of days now and for the most part Alissandra appears to be doing okay, a lot better than any of us thought she would but then I've mainly had to go off the updates from Lorenzo seeing as she's pretty much kept herself plastered to his side since we got back. She purposefully kept her distance from me and Alec which I've hated every minute of. 
She can't even hold my gaze without completely clamming up, panic edging over her features like she's scared to speak to me. Scared to say what she needs to say. She hasn't mentioned the pregnancy to me yet, although I know she's discussed it with Lorenzo even if he wouldn't give any details on it. Which pissed me off beyond belief, I get her not speaking to Alec, hell that situation is clearly a lot more complex she can't even be in the same room as him. Whereas Lorenzo's explanation of her avoidance of me is that she wants to tell me about the baby herself. I already know but it's her way of dealing with it and I get that I really do so I've given her the space she clearly needs despite not wanting to. 
Most days when I'm in the house just the two of us I head into the gym so I'm not pining after her like a fucking love sick puppy. The plus side is I'm beyond ripped so I guess that's something. 
I drop the weight as I come to the end of my workout spotting her watching me through the mirror from across the gym. 
Maybe this is it. 
When our eyes meet she says "Hey" sheepishly then looks down to the floor shifting her weight from one foot to the other. 
I have to fight with myself not to go straight over to her, lift her up in my arms and never let go because this has to be done in her own time. She's come to me for a reason I just have to let her work through it first so I say "Hey princess everything okay?" And grab a towel to wipe myself down not wanting to take my eyes off of her but deciding to as she'll clam up with me standing here staring at her. 
She silent for way to long until she finally speaks "Not really" she says and my head snaps up. "I mean yeah I am okay but I need to talk to you about something" she quickly clarifies though seeming to notice my panic.
I meet her eyes in the mirror again. "Does it have anything to do with the bun you've got baking away in there" I say with the cheeky smile I know she loves.
Her lips tug a little as she nods and shifts on her feet again still trying to avoid eye contact with me. She's anxious about this conversation, I can tell even without Lorenzo's forewarning that she would be even though there's no need for it. 
It's pretty evident whatever Alec's reaction was it's made it ten times more fucking difficult for her to let us know.
What she doesn't know is I've been fucking ecstatic from the moment we found out and it's been killing me to have to wait until she's finally plucked up the courage to come and talk to me about it. 
She's clearly wanted to do this in her own time and in her own way, I respect that I do but fuck me I've wanted to bundle her up and practically worship the ground she walks on. 
"Are you angry?" She asks, her voice just barely above a whisper. 
What the actual fuck? 
"You're joking right?" I drop the towel and make my way towards her not able to keep my distance any longer. Once I'm right in front of her I tilt her chin up so she's looking at me "Fuck, Alissandra of course I'm not angry. I couldn't be happier. Christ I've been practically combusting waiting for you to come and talk to me" 
There's a slight glint in her eyes and her lips tug up again "Really?" 
The fact she's questioning it and the worry she has about me not being happy about this makes me ask. "Does this have something to do with Alec? I swear if he's made you feel a certain way" 
The smile drops from her face and she hesitates before she answers me "I don't want to talk about it Freddie, not with you. I'll speak to Alec when I'm ready" 
I grit my teeth not liking her response but knowing if I push, it won't make matters any better "how do you feel about it? About the baby" I then ask. 
"I'm terrified but" she takes in a deep breath "but it's like I had no idea who much a wanted this until it really was an option" 
"You have no idea how fucking happy I am to hear you say that" I'm practically beaming with joy, I wrap my arms around her and lift her up so she's at my level. 
"Freddie! You're all hot and sweaty" she shrieks but she doesn't try to push me away. Instead she wraps her arms and legs around me and presses her lips against mine.
"You know I'm not just going to let you stop at one though right" I say with a wiggle of my brows. "I need a team of mini Freddie's running around the place" I'm not even kidding, coming from a big family I  miss it, I miss having so many people around. 
"A team? You're hard enough work as it is" she laughs and it's still my favourite sound. One that I want to hear every day for the rest of my fucking life.