anxiety attacks💕

                                    

                                          
you and taylor were at a party at selena's house, filled with lots of people. big crowds always made you anxious so taylor told you if there was something wrong to just tell her and you two could leave. 
everything was going okay and nothing was really bothering you too much. but taylor was leading you to the other side of the house to go see selena who was waving at you both with a huge smile on her face. 
taylor pushed her way through the crowd of people with you following behind her holding her hand. 
you were pushing through the crowd for what felt like forever, you started to get worried and your thoughts got the best of you. 
your breathing began to become uneven and heavy and your eyes began to sting as tears fell down. 
you just wanted this to be over, you wanted to go home at this point. 
taylor knew that crowd must've upset you because she could feel your sweaty palm in her hand. as soon as you got out of the crowd she turned around to you to make sure you were okay. 
by now you were hyperventilating and couldn't breathe. you panicked so much to the point you couldn't breathe. 
when taylor saw the state you were in her heart broke, she had convinced you to come to this party and you really weren't keen on it. she felt so guilty knowing this wouldn't have happened if she didn't drag you here. 
she quickly wrapped you into her warm embrace rubbing her hand up and down your back, trying everything to comfort you. 
she could feel your body shake with every sob you let out, each breaking her heart even more. she hates seeing you like this. 
"baby it's okay, it's over now" she said softly in your ear. 
you sobbed louder at her words and whined. "breathe, baby, cmon you can do this" she reassured you. 
you had had anxiety attacks before but none were ever as bad as this. it felt like your lungs were filled with water and you couldn't breathe. 
she quickly put her arms under your thighs and picked you up, rushing up the stairs behind her. she frantically ran to selena's bedroom and placed you on the bed carefully. she kneeled down in front of you and grabbed your hands in hers. 
it was a more quiet space so she felt it would be easier for you to get through your anxiety attack as it was just you and her. 
"y/n it's okay now, just breathe with me okay?" she was helping you take deep breaths and it was very slowly working. 
"tay, it feels horrible" you managed to whine breathlessly. 
"darling i know, just focus on me okay, my voice and my touch" she said as she rubbed your arms up and down. 
"you can do this baby, i believe in you, just keep taking these deep breaths" she helped you out of that anxiety attack and you began to catch your breath back. 
taylor pulled you into her arms to comfort you once you had caught your breath. she comfortingly rubbed your back and reassured you that it's over now. 
"thank you tay" you said as you looked up at her, your eyes red from crying. 
"i'm so sorry" she paused and you furrowed your eyebrows confused "for making you come here, you didn't even want to be here but i-i made you come" her voice began to break and her eyes stung with tears. 
"taylor-" she cut your words off, "it's all my fault y/n i'm so sorry" 
"no. taylor stop, none of this is your fault okay, i just got overwhelmed and couldn't control it" you kissed her cheek and smiled at her. 
"y/n i swear i won't ever do this to you again" 
"it's fine taylor, i'm fine. now can we please go home" you pouted. taylor sadly smiled at you, knowing you probably wanted to leave as soon as you got to the party. 
"of course my love, but you have to let me make it up to you tonight with lots of cuddles and kisses" she said while standing up and wrapping her arm around your waist. 
"that would be perfect, thank you tay."
taylor said goodbye to selena who was waiting down the hall as she was worried when she saw you crying to taylor. 
she gave you both a hug goodbye and you walked to the car. on the drive back taylor held your hand the whole way home and when you got home she let you sleep on her shoulder.
a/n: feel free to request something <3