He ignores my question and just continues like I haven't said anything "Then I'll help you to get set up somewhere so you can actually start to live your life" 
What the actual fuck is he going on about, my head feels like it's spinning as I try to take in what he's just said. Get me set up somewhere as in leave? What the hell. 
He sounds so ridiculous right now that I anxiously laugh as I say "Alec what the hell are you going on about?" Surely he's not actually serious right now.
I genuinely think I might be dreaming, having some kind of irrational nightmare but this feels way too real for that. Even though it's not making any sense to me right now. 
He sighs and rubs his hand over his face which agitates me. "You're too young for this Alissandra, too young to lock yourself into a life with us" he says and I try and figure out where the hell this has come from. 
Weeks ago they all sat there and told me this is what they wanted with me. Okay I don't think any of us thought it would happen this quickly but well this is a quick fucking change of tune. 
"Wait but in Puerto Rico you said-" I start but he holds up his hand silencing me. Cutting me off like it's obscene for me to be questioning him on this. 
"Yeah well we said a lot of things we shouldn't have" I don't like this version of him one bit. I thought I knew him the best knew every side to him but this. This is an Alec that I didn't know existed. 
He's so cold right now. 
"So what now all of a sudden you want me to leave because I might be pregnant" he goes to speak but I don't give him chance as rage starts to radiate through me "what the actual fuck!" I shout. 
"Keep your voice down in case the others hear you" he says trying to hush me. 
Now I see red, my vision completely fogs and all I want to do is punch him straight in the face. "Incase they hear me?" I shout and storm out of the bathroom flinging the door open with such force it bangs against the wall with a loud this. Freddie and Lorenzo are sitting up in bed both looking as confused as I feel right now. 
I spin back round to face him, acutely aware of the audience we now have "Well they can fucking hear me now can't they" I hiss throwing my arms out at the side of me. 
Lorenzo edges towards the end of the bed glancing between me and Alec as he hesitantly says "What's going on?" 
This is probably one hell of a shock to them. Like it fucking is to me. 
"Nothing" Alec grits out and that's when I fully snap. 
"Nothing?" I hiss as my whole body vibrates with rage "Do you know what Alec fuck you. I expect this kind of narrow minded bullshit from him but never from you" I snap pointing at Lorenzo 
Who refers back slightly and says "Can one of you please explain what the fuck is going on" 
Freddie seems speechless in his sleep ridden daze, his head is turning back and forth between me and Alec as he tries to take in ways going on right now. 
I half laugh and shake my head realising if Alec has this thought process about the possibility of me being pregnant. They probably all feel the same way. "Like he said its nothing" I say feeling my heart break a little at him using that word. 
Nothing. That's what this is to him. It's nothing. 
I can't be around them right now that's all I know for sure. "all of you get out" I say and I see the shock on Freddie and Lorenzo's faces at my demand. 
That's when Lorenzo stands and comes towards me "Hold up Alissandra let's talk this through" he pauses and looks between me and Alec "whatever this is"
"What this is? This is me telling you all to get the fuck out before I gauge his fucking eyes out" I grit back barely able to contain my anger right now. 
"You're being irrational" Alec sighs. 
"Irrational?" I shout and I don't know what comes over me but I fling myself towards him. I have no idea what I think I'm going to do but hurting him in any way like how much he's hurting me right now might do the trick. 
Before I can really move properly Lorenzo has his arm around me pulling me back against him. "Get him away from me now!" I practically scream at them pointing towards the door. 
Freddie doesn't even hesitate he scrambles off the bed and shoves Alec of the room not before he sneers at me "you know I'm right Alissandra don't ruin your life" I can see the confusion deepen on both Freddie and Lorenzo's expressions as they try to figure out what that means but instead of questioning Freddie finally pulls Alec out of the room closing the door behind them. 
"What is he going on about ruining your life?" Lorenzo asks turning me in his arms. 
I open my mouth to explain but I realise I don't even have the words to scramble together a coherent sentence. I'm so angry. 
"Just leave me alone please I need to shower and get dressed" I reply pulling away and turning my back on him. 
I half expect him to arguing with me but thankfully he doesn't I hear him retreat and the door open and close. Once I'm alone I slump down on the bed and try to comprehend what just happened myself. 
The more I sit there and think about it the angrier I get. How the hell could he be so cold about this? How could he change his mind so quickly? 
I decide I can't just sit in this room any longer constantly thinking about it. I need to get some fresh air. I need to get away from them for a little while. 
I quickly pull on a set of clothes not really thinking about what I'm doing and head downstairs. As I come down the stairs the house is a lot quieter than I thought it would be. I look around a little and spot everyone standing out back discussing something. 
They're either discussing the inconvenience of my latest development or the plan for Antonio today, either way I don't give a shit right now. I slip out of the main door completely unseen and it's a lot easier than I thought it would be. I guess everyone is so focused on someone trying to get near the house they're completely oblivious to me sneaking around to leave.
Do I have any idea where I'm going? No
Do I think this is a good idea? No I know it's not but right now I want to be as far away from them as physically possible.