Chapter 30 | Messed up emotions

                                    

                                          
Heyy, so sorry this chapter took longer to update but I hurt my thumb mid writting it so I had to wait a while.
Anyways, enjoy
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NEXT DAY:
Staring at the white doors.
Sitting on my bed, knees pushed to my chest, staring at the wooden doors.
Staring at the locked doors.
Why did he do that to me? What the hell did he mean by saying I should think about what it means to be his possesion?
I didn't do anything wrong in that direction. I think.
If I only think about the way he looked at me with those cold green eyes, a chill immediately runs down my spine.
How he grabbed me and intimidated me, how with every breath I started to fear him more. 
How he kissed me. In front of everyone.
But the kiss was far from nice. It was mad and angry and it didn't feel right. It was far from right.
I don't want to kiss him ever again. Expecially now that he locked me inside my room.
I don't deserve to be treated this way, I did nothing to him. At least not on purpose. But he is constantly acting so mean and cruel to me. I don't know why.
I thought he was different. Because he was different when I was practically chanined to my bed. He was nice and could calm me down almost instantly. He made the demons go away. He protected me.
Was it even real? Or was it all just a lie?
Tear escaping my puffy eyes, I sob again. Laying down on my side I curl up in a ball, snuggling my face into the other pillow. Crying.
Will I always be so lonely and abandoned?
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Warmth overflowing my wet cheek, feeling gentle rubbing on my blanket-covered shoulder.
Huh?
Too sleepy to really register it, I don't give it a second thought. It's probably just a dream.
Small drop of light showing through my closed eyelids. The pitch blackness is gone.
"Cali" a voice calls my name.
Please, I just want to sleep and not think about my problems.
I don't respond. Honestly am too sleepy to do it. I drown back into sleep.
Feeling my body being moved "Cali" distant voice calls me again. 
I am lifted up.
What the hell?
My heart starting to panic as I'm trying to wake myself up. Grunting I slowly open my eyes. Almost immediately shutting them back closed as I'm placed into sitting position, with my thighs parted.
What is happening?
My room is pretty dimmed, only the small light on my night stand must be illuminating it. 
"Ugh" grunting again as I start blinking to adjust my eyes. Rubbing my eyes with my hand I finally succeed to keep them open.
I don't understand a damn thing at first.
Omg, would you wake up.
Groaning I shake my head, trying to get rid of the sleepy feeling. Opening my eyes again. 
My jaw drops as I see that I'm placed on some man's lap, straddling him.
"wh-what-" I panic in mumble, my body shaking on this person, confusly I look around.