17. 𝙽𝚘𝚝 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗 𝙰𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚕

                                    

                                          
Chapter-17
Rose' POV 
I am running away from my dark past. I don't feel comfortable talking about it. Except for my Dad and Rain, nobody knows the amount of trauma I've been through. 
He controlled me for three months and those three months were the worst days of my life. I was dying every day. His atrocities knew no bounds. He didn't kill me all at once, he wanted me to suffer daily and he made sure, he inflicted pain on me in the name of Love. 
After sessions and sessions of therapy, I started to feel normal and okay. Fine. 
My dad's health deteriorated and he only improved when I started to go to therapy. 
I had lost all hope to live. I didn't want to. Every time i looked at myself in the mirror, his face, his degrading words, that evil smirk appeared infront of my eyes. 
I never tried to kill myself, maybe i was a coward but i never tried. I had no will to live, so, it was like a slow poison killing me from within. 
It is because of my dad, i found the will to live again, to breathe and enjoy all those little things just like I did once. 
When I came to States, I had no friends. I met Rain unexpectedly in a Mart and our friendship started with a small hi and bye. I was afraid to talk. Rain's aunt, Dr. Carla, was my therapist. One day Rain saw me walking out of her office and she ran towards me and asked me how I was feeling. 
I cried! I wasn't feeling good. 
I wasn't okay at all. I wasn't feeling fine. When she asked me how I was feeling, tears escaped my eyes, without any barriers
I told everything to Rain. Every single detail. After listening to my traumatizing past, she was in tears too. She said I was strong and super kind. I don't know, she keeps telling that, a lot of times. 
Rain started visiting me daily. Even before college started, we became close friends. She spent time with me and dragged me everywhere with her. She helped me a lot in my healing process. She is such an Angel. Without her, life would have been so much more difficult. She makes everything so easy. I'm glad to have her in my life. 
It's funny how I went through so much and healed myself after experiencing so much pain, abuse and violation, ONLY to get trapped in the hands of another violent man. 
Chase...Chase Hunter Griffin - The Don of Northern States. He screams danger. He is all about power and money. He is a walking red flag. And somehow I caught the attention of the wrong man, yet again!
I know it's not my fault. But I cannot stop myself from thinking otherwise. 
Chase says he likes me!!! That monster said he loved me and what happened?? He nearly killed me. He transformed me into the unrecognisable woman, that I am today. 
He was violent, sadist. He tortured a guy from my class because he danced with me. That day was the longest and most painful. He hurt me all day and night, without pausing for a minute. He was sick. He never killed anyone in front of me. I don't know if he killed anyone or not, he never did anything of that sort in front of me. That doesn't make him any less of a monster than he is already.
But Chase! He killed Ken right in front of me. I'm not sure why Chase did that, but if he did that to instil fear in me, he succeeded. He instilled fear in me successfully. I couldn't sleep for the whole night. 
I've been having Nightmares, since that cafe incident. This man wants to traumatize my traumatized self, all over again. 
Somehow I feel Chase can break me completely. It's easy to break the pieces that are already broken.