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TONIS POV:
So yeah.. here we sat, on our little bench near the river where Cheryl and I used to spent our boring days talking and kissing.
A tear rolled down my face as I looked at her, 
„Will I ever see you again?" I asked with a shaky voice. 
For some reason, I couldn't accept that she needed to leave for the good, my heart was still in the place where me met daily in school.. sleeping over at each others houses on the weekends and guessing how we did on the exams.
Never did I think of the moment where our little forever would end.. the time where we couldn't go on walks, or stay up late. Kissing on random partys or our mid night deep talks in bed. I didn't think.. it would ever end.
But it did.
„I don't know.." Cheryl whispered back and thinned her lips, she was crying? I've never seen her cry before.
 „do you think we will?"
I shrugged, „maybe you'll meet someone new.."
She looked at me and wiped my tears. She truly was crying.
„I'll be searching for you in everyone I meet, but my soul knows to which heart it belongs to.. I promise I won't."
„Don't promise that, you don't know." I looked down to her legs, „there will be one day where you wake up and I'm just the happy memory in your head."
I smiled and looked back up. My eyes were red and I couldn't really breathe though my sobs, but I knew this was the most beautiful moment we had.
She blinked a few times, tears escaping her eyes when she placed a soft kiss on my forehead and pulled me into a warm loving hug, 
„If that is how it will be.. then you're not just a happy little memory. You'll be the best one."
I chuckled before breaking into more tears, „I love you so much Cheryl, I don't want us to end." i sobbed into her shoulder, „you can't leave!!"
„I have to, mi amor. But I'll come back.. trust me that's not the last day you'll see me. And even if you won't remember me, I'll come back. I'll call you." she kissed my head, „but you know we wouldn't make it through the distance."
I thought about her words while I cried more and more.
I couldn't accept it.
I couldn't accept she was actually leaving the country for years, leaving me alone here.
I couldn't possibly see that we won't be able to see each other tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow.
I didn't realise that „people are leaving for good" was an actual thing.
„I can't live without you. I won't be able to sleep, or eat.. or get up. Cheryl I can't do anything without you!!"
„You survived once, and you'll survive again.." she slowly caressed her nails through my hair, „I will come back."
„When?" I looked at her, „when will you come back? After College? When you probably have another girlfriend...? Cheryl it will be five years.. you'll be twenty - six and ill be in m twenty's too!"
She closed her eyes and looked down when she brought her hands to her face,
„Don't say that. Don't say we wont meet again!"
She cried painfully,
„I need to see you! Y- you changed me to the better. I never knew I could be at my best until I met you!" she stood up, „until I realised, youre the one that makes me being the best version of me! Im the best.. when I'm with you!!"
„I can't believe we're actually breaking up for good." I looked at her, „I don't wanna do this."
„I know.. but please remember that you're never alone. I'm always here to listen and talk to you for forever.. just call me.. or message me. I don't ever want you to wake up and feel like I'm gone, I'm away or that I left you here. I have to leave and all I want you is to still feel how much I love you."