The others were nice enough I guess, but conversation was usually awkward, and mostly forced on their end, especially when the topic wasn't football or anything related to the match or game we just played.
I zipped up my fly and turned to wash my hands when the door went and Eric walked in, "Samantha" he said standing in the doorway, he was a lot taller than me, but I wasn't going to let him intimidate me, I headed to the sink and dispensed some soap onto my hands.
Hitting the tap to rinse it off I watched his figure in the mirror, he stood unmoving even as I grabbed a paper towel to dry my hands, but now he was stood in my way, I didn't want to start an argument here though
"can I just...." I reach for the door handle with my hand but before I could grab it Eric pushes me up against the wall, his thick wide paw pressed against my chest and I could feel the sharpness of his claws through my t-shirt, even though they weren't pressed in.
"what the fuck Eric" I scream out trying to push back at him but hes much stronger than I am, he doesn't say anything, his eyes stare at mine, I try to lash out with my fist but he just grabs it with his paw, I expect the retaliation and flinch in anticipation but it doesn't come.
Instead he just stares at me, his pupils are large, he sniffs the air close to me, his lips move towards mine and I move my head away "no, what the fuck?" I manage as his paws grasp me harder
"but your gay?" Eric growls at me almost, confusion in his eyes
"that's not how it fucking works"
he snarls releasing this hold on me, but places a foot near the door preventing it opening, "Don't you dare say anything" he roars moving his foot, I could not get out there quick enough, my heart was beating a thousand times a second, but all for the wrong reasons
"you OK" Jackson asked a serious look on his face when i return
"y-yeah" I stutter 
"you dont look so good, a bit pale" I eye Eric as he sits back across the table from me, "I don't know maybe the pizza, I just feel funny" I said trying to think of something, Eric looks away
"told you pineapple was bad" Jackson jokes, but when I don't laugh he puts a paw on my shoulder, "you want to go back?"
"uhh yeah sure" I say quietly it seems we're mostly done here anyway, and it was getting rather late, and to be honest the quicker we left this place the better
I got into Jacksons car which felt better, I felt safer here and my first thought was I should tell someone, but I wasn't exactly sure what it was I was going to tell them, and equally I didn't think Jackson was the right person.
I shrugged it off, "at least your colours come back, sure you're not allergic to pineapple?" Jackson asked while turning down the radio
"definitely not the pineapple" I smiled still adamant to win that debate
"well you are a strange one Sam"
"yeah I guess so"
"what you doing Saturday?"
"huh?" I say looking over
"few of us are going to the cinema, if you're bored you know?" he shrugs his shoulders
"yeah" I say a little eagerly, "that would be cool" I try to say a little more whatever like but I pretty sure I went too far the other way with it
Jackson laughed, "well I think the guys are set on avatar 2"
"yeah, I've not seen that yet"
"great, I can pick you up, Bryson & Phil are coming too"
At least they were some of the ones who would try and talk with me, and at least it wasn't Eric, although Jackson hadn't so much as hung around with him since the party but I didn't really want to bring up the topic of Eric.
We chatted about the game the remainder of the way home, although mostly my brain was distracted back to Eric pinning me up against the wall, how the heck could he be gay?
Now if Jackson wanted to pin me up against a wall like that I had no objection, in fact the thought of it was kinda working for me.
"earth to Sam" Jackson said breaking me out my daydream, just as we pulled up outside my house, I had no idea how long I had zoned out for
"sorry I was lost in thought" I say feeling the heat in my cheeks, what was it with Jackson that just made me this uncontrollable mess around him
"you don't say" he laughs, I hesitate for a moment in his car, flashing thoughts of Jackson coming back to me from my dream, and I realised I was staring at him a little too long and undid my belt getting out 
"I'll see you school" Jackson says as I close the door and wave him down the street, I felt like I could melt right into the pavement there and then, this was unhealthy lusting after a guy I knew I didn't have a chance with
I thought for a moment about joining the LGBTQ group at school, maybe someone else was going through the same nonsense as me, maybe I could make sense of the Eric thing too, I thought about telling Ella, but somehow, I felt this was a boy thing