CHAPTER 19

                                    

                                          
Amber POV
I heard some weird sounds from bathroom.
"Hey! Tara, are you okay?!" I yelled on her.
"N-no."
I quickly opened the door and closed them behind me, than I saw Tara kneeling besides the toilet.
"Oh my god,.. honey, whats wrong?"
I sat next to her and gently rubbed her back.
She shook her head and throw up in the toilet, I
helped her with the hair to pull them from her face.
After that she went back to shower and I joined
her.
From that day, Tara was more moody and her taste started to change.
It was already two months and I hate to say it, but she is over eating herself, she also gained weight so her stomach is not flat.
I was worried, because, she often throw up in the morning, so I called our manager and asked her to sat appointment with Tara's doctor as soon as possible.
I have never ever expected to hear what I heard.
Tara POV 
I was weird. Like, really weird, my taste was weird and I could train like crazy, but I couldn't get back on my weight.
Amber and I went today to my doctor, because of my often throwing up in the morning and all.
"Hello Miss Carpenter"
"Hello"
I smiled on her and sat down in front of her desk, Amber was sitting next to me.
"So, I heard, that you have gained lot of weight and can't lose it, also that you throw up often"
"Yeah, my moods and tastes are going crazy also."
"I see" she wrote something in her computer and stood up.
"Can I ask you if you could take off your shirt and lay here?"
I nodded and done as she said.
She was pressing with her two fingers on my
stomach, the she went for, ultrasound scanner?
"Um, I'm sorry, but I'm sure that I can't be pregnant, you see, I have, umm sex with someone as s-same sex as me"
"I figured out, I'm happy for you and Amber" She smiled and smeared some gel over me.
Amber came to me, still shocked and hold my hand.
"Try to relax"
"Okay"
She started to move with the, scanner and I looked to the television.
My heart stopped.
"Even though you are doing save sex, I have to
disagree about 'I can't be pregnant' because you
are in second month of pregnancy"
she said and I felt Amber to grope my hand even
tighter.
"W-what?! How?"
"Well, I should ask you on that"
The doctor said and looked at me.
My eyes started to tear up.
"Amber..it's his, I'm sure" I looked her in eyes"
"Shhh, You didn't even know Tara, he raped you"
She kissed my hand and brushed off mine tears.
"Im so sorry about that" the doctor said.
"You can now take on your shirt back, here the
tissues so you can wipe the gel off"
She handed me few tissues and left to sit behind
her table again.
"I know that it's a shock, but I have to ask, will you have the baby, or do you want to take it off"
Amber POV
I was so lost. I can't even imagine how Tara feels
right now. I looked at her and hold her hand softly.
"Tara?"
"C-can I think about it?"
She almost whispered.
"Sure thing Miss Carpenter"
We went back to our dorm and Tara went right to our room, not greeting anybody.
"So..what happened?" Kathleen asked me from couch with Bert.
"Umm, I thing that Tara is the one who should tell you" I said and went to Tara.
"Tara, my love"
She was sitting on bed and crying.
"A-Amber..I'm confused."
"It's okay" I sat next to her and wrapped my hand around her shoulder.
"No, it's not. Amber I'm having another human in me and I have to decide if I will let him alive or kill him"
She whispered and the tears started to roll down
her cheeks.
"Tara." I kissed her cheeks and hugged her.
"I know that I can't have a baby, but it also feels like killing someone"
"Tara? Look at me" I hold her face as she faced
me.
"Tara, one day we will have our family, our own
child, but we can't have it now, look at it from other view, if we will have a child now, we wouldn't be able to take care about it, not because of the money, but we will be busy and I don't want the child feel lonely"
She nodded and wiped her tears off.
"You are right, we can't do that to him"
She managed to give me small smile and I kissed
her.
"I love you bite-sized"
"I love you too longitude"
"You should go and tell the girls, I bet they are
dying to know"
I smirked and stood up, I helped her stood up to
and we went together to living room.
"Tara.. we are worried about you"
Kathleen said as we sat next to them.
"I know chu, I'm sorry and I will explain it now."
Berticuss POV
I started cry as soon as she finished.
"Oh god, I'm so sorry Tara" I hugged her tightly.
"So what are you going to do?"
"We decided, that it will be for the best to not have it now."
"You are right" Kathleen smiled on them and hold Tara's hand.
"We will support you in anything"
"Thank you" Tara hugged Kathleen again.
"I will go call the doctor about our decision"
Amber stood up and kissed Tara on cheek, they are so sweet.
I hugged Kathleen from behind and lay my head on her back.
"Im going to take a shower." I heard Tara say.
"She is so strong" I muttered.
"She is"