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The next few weeks after that were so hard for you.
You started doing intense chemo almost immediately, which was making you feel super sick.
You were also being pumped with various medicines to try to help with symptoms from the chemo.
I did everything I could to comfort you through the start of your painful journey.
That day, December 23rd, we got even worse news.
What an early Christmas present...



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Here I was, crouched down in the hospital bathroom with Jungwon while he puked his guts out for the 3rd time today.
He's been having such a hard time, and chemo was really taking a toll on him.
He looked 30 pounds lighter, a few shades paler, and he was already starting to lose a bit of his hair.
When he was done, I helped him up and helped him back into his bed.
The hospital was kind enough to move Jungwon into one of those bigger rooms with an actual bed for Jungwon, and chairs and couches for me and his parents to sleep on.
I help Jungwon get into the bed, covering his shaking body with the blanket.
"Do you need some water baby?" Mrs. Yang asks from her chair.
Jungwon just shakes his head no, turning to his side and facing the window.
"Is it snowing?" Jungwon asks.
"Yeah, it has been. It's super cold outside." I say.
"I wish I could go out and see the snow.."
Suddenly, an idea pops up in my head.
"You know what? How about when the doctor comes back, I can ask if I can take you outside to see the snow. Does that sound okay?" I ask.
A smile appears on Jungwon's face.
"Yeah, I'd like that." He says.
Just then, there was a knock on the door.
The doctor walks in with the same face he had a few weeks ago.
Is Jungwon getting worse or something? What could it be this time?
Mr. Yang was out for a bit doing something important, so it was just us three.
"I'm sorry, but I have some bad news for you all." The doctor says.
Oh god.
"What is it?.." Mrs. Yang asks.
I grab Jungwon's hand, giving it a light squeeze as we wait for the news.
"So, we just found out that if this chemo doesn't start working soon, Jungwon most likely only has 2 months at best. I'm so sorry, I wish we would've caught it earlier because maybe we would've been able to stop it from spreading." The doctor says.
Jungwon's weak grip on my hand tightened.
2 months?...
Jungwon only has 2 months at best?...






























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After the doctor had left, I didn't leave your side this time.
I stayed right there with you, even though I was crying.
I knew I couldn't leave you again, because I didn't know when you were going to leave me.




































































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lol...
anyways😥 
have an amazing day/night and STREAM BITE ME!!!