Life in the Pack

                                    

                                          
11. Life in the Pack 
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I have had time to think while I laid on the hospital bed, it was wrong to wish for death, I may hate my situation but I still had time and nothing lasts forever. 
As hard as it will be I will make a life in the pack, a quiet life, here I might never be respected or loved but I am not in a cage and I can be happy by myself, I just had to make sure my wolf does not die, it would be her and I against the world. 
Kaden had not returned to my room since that day but they were two bulky wolves mounted at the door, making sure I don't harm myself, I have never actually harmed myself despite the torture I had faced in my former pack, this time the possibility of really losing my wolf shook me, I don't need a doctor to tell me that I needed therapy, but how was I going to get one when I was still trapped in this pack. Werewolf mental health was not exactly treated as a thing in my world, werewolves were naturally unpredictable, feral and quick to anger except the broken ones like myself.
"Your vitals are good Louisiana" Hannah smiled at me and I smiled back weakly 
"When do I get to leave here?" I asked 
"Louisiana, though I am worried about your shifting, your body seems to have recovered but I am not able to tell when the changing might happen again and if you would survive it" she responded 
"How can I survive it?" I asked, she could sense the determination in my voice
She smiled widely before responding "It would not be easy if your mate is beside you to draw out some of the pain you will feel, I was already thinking of talking to the Alpha–"
"No!" I stopped her, I don't want Kaden's help " is there no other way?" I inquire 
Hannah's face contour into the look of disappointment and I already knew the answer before she said  "Louisiana I am sorry but this is the only possible method that I think would work" 
"How exactly does Kaden take my pain?,would that hurt him as well?" I ask, in spite of Kaden's apathy towards me I did not want to be the reason why he would go through more pain. 
"The Alpha will also go through pain that I will not deny, but if the pain you would feel is shared between the two of you, it would not be as excruciating as it would be if you took it all by yourself , as you witnessed previously" Hannah explained 
"Oh!" I say weakly " How does this work?" I asked 
"There is the catch, you both have to be mated and marked for this to work, it is the strongest bond, that is the only way" she confessed and my eyes widens 
"Does the Alpha know about this yet?" I asked 
"No, I am going to inform him when I leave here" she replied 
"Don't tell him" I demanded, I know I was being foolish and risking my life but I do not want Kaden to mate with me because that is the only way I will live, I do not want him to accept to do something that he will regret doing afterwards. 
"But Louisiana–" Hannah whines but I cut her off before she has the time to protest 
"The human doctors have this patient confidentiality agreement, I think that applies to werewolves doctors as well since you doctors also went to the same school and took the same oath" I explained