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Taehyung pov
"How is that fair? I didn't do this to myself." "Life isn't fair Taehyung." He shoved me with his shoulder as he walked past me making me stumble falling on the ground. I took a deep breath and just sat there not bothering to get up letting the rain soak my clothes. "Are you alright?" I looked up at where the voice came from and sighed softly. "What are you doing here?" "I was picking up snacks for Byul." He came over and helped me up his eyes going wide seeing my stomach. 
"You- you're pregnant?" "Don't worry it's not yours." I kept my eyes down not wanting to look at him. "Can I ask why you were on the ground?" "Jungkook please don't act like you care about me." "Taehyung I do care about you." "But you don't love me." He sighed softly and I nodded. "You can care all you want, it won't change anything.." I walked past him and hugged myself shivering a bit. "Taehyung you're going to make yourself sick." "I'm fine." "No you're not, I can smell you. You're upset and I don't know if it's from seeing me or the reason you were on the ground but I'm not stupid." He grabbed my arm and turned me back around. 
"Please just leave me alone. You're not helping." "So you'd rather get sick and risk your baby's health then let me help you?" "My baby is fine." "Just come home with me you can change into something dry and call your sister to pick you up." "She's not in town." "Well then at least let me walk you home." "No. I don't want or need your help." "Quit being stubborn and just let me walk with you." "No!" He sighed softly and I clenched my jaw. "I am like this because of you! I was only with that guy because you were in my head 24 fucking 7! I needed to get you out of my head and move on! You being here is not helping!" 
"I'm sorry." "Fuck you!" I shoved him and he sighed stumbling back and nodded. "Please be careful." "You don't get to tell me what to do!" "Taehyung I'm not-." "Shut up! Just shut up! I don't want to hear your voice anymore! I can't! Your voice is all I ever hear and I can't take it anymore!" He gave me a sympathetic look and I rolled my eyes turning back around walking down the street crossing my arms trying to keep myself warm. 
I huffed and turned around glaring at him. "Leave me alone!" "Taehyung my house is this way." He pointed up the hill and I looked over seeing his apartment door. I closed my eyes and turned back around walking again. "Do you want me to ask Namjoon if he can drive you home?" I stopped and heard him walk up behind me. "I just want to make sure you get home safe." I felt the warm tears rolling down my cold cheeks sighing. "If I say yes you need to promise me that you won't speak to me ever again." "Taehyung." "Stop saying my name like that.." He huffed and walked around standing right in front of me. "I'm not promising anything if you're being stupid I'm going to tell you." 
"No you're not. You have no right to tell me what to do with my life. You lost that choice when you told me to leave." I blinked a few times looking down at my hands. I bit my lips together my hands shaking as I gently pulled the butterfly ring off my finger holding it out to him. "Give this back to Byul." "Taehy-.." He bit his lips together and I grabbed his hand putting the ring in his palm looking him in the eyes. 
"Just stay away from me. I don't need a constant reminder that I wasn't good enough." He closed his eyes and I took a moment to look at him before walking past him going towards the bus stop. I couldn't sense him behind me anymore. I took a deep breath and slowly made my way down the street. This will be good for me in the end. Maybe getting dumped was my sign to give up on dating. But now being pregnant and dumped again I feel even more unwanted. I wasn't good enough to love, and now I'm not even enough for a good guy to stick around for his child.
I guess I really am a hurricane just blowing through and ruining everything in my path.. I placed my hand on my stomach as I sat down on the bench. Hopefully I won't mess this up too. I rubbed my stomach and sighed leaning back waiting for the bus to arrive.