48.

                                    

                                          
I sat in bed watching Onyx. My legs were pressed to my chest and my arms are wrapped around my legs. I couldn't bear seeing Onyx like this but I couldn't do anything but try my best to comfort him. 
"Onyx," I said trying to get his attention. He has his head hung low with his arms resting on his knees. I knew he was embarrassed so I won't bring up his breakdown from earlier. But I needed to know what Kellu was talking about earlier. She made some good points and I needed to know. I am planning on spending the rest of my life with Onyx yet I don't know what he does for a living. 
He inhales a breath and turns to look at me. 
"Baby, can we talk about this another time?" He asked me. I shake my head and crawl over to him. "No, Onyx we can't just push our problems away. We need to talk about this now. Please Onyx." I spoke to him and grab his hands. He refuses to look me in the eyes and chooses to keep his eyes close. 
"Baby-I-I can't right now," He said prying his hands away from mine. 
He stands up and grabs a coat. "I need to get some air," He said without looking at me. He grabs the doorknob before walking out of the bedroom.
I didn't bother following him since he seemed like a ticking bomb that was ready to go off. I didn't want to be the one to tick him off. So I place my head in my hands and sigh. I didn't want to cry since crying didn't fix anything. I was worried about him but I understood he needed some space. So I was going to give him that space for a while until we were both ready to talk about this. 
I look down at the foot of the bed to see Groot. He looked sad and I could hear him whining a little. I smile at him and wrap my arms around his body. He was getting so much bigger that I couldn't hold him anymore. I lay down beside him and place my head on his body. He was going to give me comfort while I wait for Onyx to return. 
Someone knocks on the floor before it opens. Aaron pokes his head through the door and frowns. "What is wrong with Onyx?" he asked. I sit up and look at him. I sigh and motion for him to come in. He does and sits on the bed beside me. He faces his body toward me and places his hand on my shoulder. I guess he could see that I was upset. I was never good at hiding my emotions like Onyx has been unless he was really heartbroken like he is now. 
"We saw Kelly today," I said making Aaron's usually calm diameter turn angry. He removes his hand from my shoulder and places them in his lap. He clenches his hands into fists. "Did he have a panic attack?" He asked looking at me. I nod my head and avoided his eyes. He sighs and nods his head as he thinks. "She always triggers something in him. I think she's too much like his mother. They're both horrible and manipulative. Like they both leave scars no normal person could heal from. At the time I thought since he was so attached to his mother growing up he found someone who was just like her in every way but her looks. I think Kelly was his only girlfriend at the time and she somehow managed to get in his head and use that to her advantage. I truly don't think Kelly ever loved him but was in love with being able to control him and use him."
He sighs and looks at me. "He avoided love for 6 to 7 years," He said smiling at me. "He only had girls to have sex with him and when I met you I thought you were going to be just like them. He'll use you for sex and leave you until he needs sex again. I'm so glad I was wrong."
I smile and wrap my arms around his waist. I place my head on his chest and inhale a large breath so I didn't cry. "He saved me," I whisper. Aaron places his hand on my back and rubs it. "I thought every day will be my last with Jackson and Onyx saved me. I don't know why he did it but he did and I could never be more grateful for him." I close my eyes to hold back the tears. "He's changed me in a good way. He made the Maya that I didn't even know was in there come out. And I can't be more grateful."