27 (Dangerous)

                                    

                                          
Author pov 
Jungkook was caressing Jin's hair kissing his head and hair some times. No one uttering a word! After some time Jin stepped back causing Jungkook to look at him. 
He wiped his tears and looked at Jungkook. He then lowered his head and began playing with his fingers. 
"I......I......." He whispered and bit his bottom lip. He again looked at Jungkook. 
"Maybe it was better I haven't told you anything!" He said with a cracking voice. Jungkook narrowed his eyes and tilted his head..
"What do you mean?" Jin sighed and exhaled deeply. 
"Seokjin what you wanna say?" Jin looked at him with teary eyes. 
"What.....what I wanna say is.....is I cannot ruin lots of people including us and your family!" 
"What are you saying? We haven't done any-" 
"Exactly!" He lowered his head. 
"We haven't done anything and this guilt is ruining me. Moreover we are nothing and won't be anything together. So me staying means adding more suffer. Which causes to ruin myself! Then this is you....my being here will effect you and finally your family! How can I face.....Jimin and Somi while I have betrayed their appa an-" 
"Jaehyun and I have came to an unfixable position!" He looked at Jungkook and swallowed. 
"What do you mean? Are you saying this to catch my attention so I don't feel guilty-" 
"No no! Not at all!" Jungkook said and held Jin's hand. 
"Jin! If I want you to stay....it is cause.....you do care for me.....the way no one has cared! Even we were two strangers but you always would take care of me. Not me but my chidlren. No I'm not saying I do want you near me cause I want that care or cause of my children but.....I don't think I can be without you!" Jin blinked. 
"So you just want me here cause you want?" Jin asked and looked at Jungkook with a serious face. 
"What about the care I need? You know how does it feel to me to know here I love someone but there is no place in his heart for me-" 
"You think I want you beside me while there is no feeling for you in my heart?" Jin looked at Jungkook. 
"So you claim you love me?" Jungkook lowered his head. 
"You caught my attention the very first day we met. When you took my pen from me." He said and smiled to Jin. 
"How can I be sure? What evident you can give me?" Jungkook looked at him. 
"Whatever you want I am ready to give you!" Jungkook bit his bottom lip nervously. In his whole life he hasn't been like this. Even with Jaehyun! Maybe this was the love everyone would speak about it! The love that you cannot resist! That you want to give your whole life to have it. 
He got shocked as Jin hugged him and put his head on his shoulder. 
"All I want is to be with you! Next to you." Jin went back and stared at Jungkook with teary eyes. 
"But I know this is so hard and maybe impo-" 
"It is not!" 
"Mr Jeo-" 
"Jungkook!" Jin eyes got round. 
"From now on I am Jungkook for you." Jin smiled and lowered his head. Soon the smiled disappeared and he looked at Jungkook. 
"Jungkook! I am afraid! This is not right. You're married an-" 
"Do you want to be next to me?" 
"Of course I do!" 
"Do you love me?" Jin smiled. 
"No! It was all an act." He said and chuckled. He then pouted. 
"Here I confessed my love way earlier than you. You know how much I cried cause of my unfortunate chance?" Jungkook chuckled and caressed his face. 
"Just trust me!" Jin looked at him. 
"What about you?" He asked and bit his bottom lip. 
"What about me wht?" Jin sighed. 
"I believe you love me cause your eyes won't lie but...." He looked straight into Jungkook's eyes. 
"Loving someone and wanting him to be beside you are two different things." 
"You wanna know if I want you beside me?" Jin pouted and nodded. 
"Maybe it doesn't look like that right now but soon you will be beside me. Not just in my heart but you yourself will be with me. Eventhough you deserve better. I am a married man that maybe cannot give you alot and even bring bad names for you-" 
"Stop it!" Jin said and cupped Jungkook's cheeks.